getting back out there
last night christina and hailey dragged me out of my cave. i learned that dating is not like riding a bicycle. once you haven't done it in a while (almost 4 YEARS!), you really can forget how to do it. obviously.
i did manage to get out & meet a few new cute boys (or were they cute? i was under the influence so who really knows). i made awkward conversations, avoided some, and enjoyed some. i know it sounds lame, but it helped my self-esteem. after spending the last two years with someone who would never even toss a compliment my way, it was nice to hear them (even if they weren't sincere).
i'm starting to feel the healing process begin. each morning i wake up and it hurts a little less. i realize now this feeling wont last forever. i'll get through this. but i need to not be stupid, not do stuff to hurt myself.. like looking at stupid myspace pages that make me projectile vomit all over the monitor.
"your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures"
i did manage to get out & meet a few new cute boys (or were they cute? i was under the influence so who really knows). i made awkward conversations, avoided some, and enjoyed some. i know it sounds lame, but it helped my self-esteem. after spending the last two years with someone who would never even toss a compliment my way, it was nice to hear them (even if they weren't sincere).
i'm starting to feel the healing process begin. each morning i wake up and it hurts a little less. i realize now this feeling wont last forever. i'll get through this. but i need to not be stupid, not do stuff to hurt myself.. like looking at stupid myspace pages that make me projectile vomit all over the monitor.
"your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures"