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Why I am Stressed:
Camp just ended and I'm feeling adrift. I had to say good-bye to amazing students and co-workers. I have no career and no apartment of my own. It's the first weekend I've spent without Sean since April, and he didn't call this morning. My erstwhile roommates may have moved out of our apartment, so the state and location of the things I left there are up in the air. I lost my keys. I am cutting back on processed sugar, and my body is not happy about it. I feel fat. All of my clothes either don't fit right or are getting ratty. I am poor. Not going to grad school feels like a waste.
Why I Should Calm Down:
I have a bedroom in my parent's house. Astrid is letting me move in for the month of August so I can keep my part-time summer job at the biochemistry department. She said she might be able to give me a few more hours and responsibilities. I'm spending five days with Sean starting on Wednesday. I forgot that Sunday is paintball day; he called me as soon as he got home. The stuff I left in the apartment was stuff I'll probably end up getting rid of anyway. Someone found my keys near my car, took the keys, and left a note on the windshield so I could call and get them. The first three days without processed sugar are always the worst, and then your body is happier than it was to begin with. I am overweight but healthy, and have some really satisfying bruises from canoing last week. I'm keeping up with my bills and have acceptable credit. I have a wonderful support network of friends, siblings, parents, and loving partner. I got great GRE's and can go to any grad school I want, anytime I want, and am on Northeastern's deferral list.
Blerg transitional state. How I love and fear you.
What I Want:
-Work for Gautam for a year.
-Buy a chunk of the estate and build a house on it. (Or buy an existing house.)
-Start my own business.
-Start learning some sports in earnest: skiing, kayaking, kickboxing, yoga.
What I Have to Do:
-Get an interim job to make some money while I take classes.
Sounds so simple when you put it like that.
Camp just ended and I'm feeling adrift. I had to say good-bye to amazing students and co-workers. I have no career and no apartment of my own. It's the first weekend I've spent without Sean since April, and he didn't call this morning. My erstwhile roommates may have moved out of our apartment, so the state and location of the things I left there are up in the air. I lost my keys. I am cutting back on processed sugar, and my body is not happy about it. I feel fat. All of my clothes either don't fit right or are getting ratty. I am poor. Not going to grad school feels like a waste.
Why I Should Calm Down:
I have a bedroom in my parent's house. Astrid is letting me move in for the month of August so I can keep my part-time summer job at the biochemistry department. She said she might be able to give me a few more hours and responsibilities. I'm spending five days with Sean starting on Wednesday. I forgot that Sunday is paintball day; he called me as soon as he got home. The stuff I left in the apartment was stuff I'll probably end up getting rid of anyway. Someone found my keys near my car, took the keys, and left a note on the windshield so I could call and get them. The first three days without processed sugar are always the worst, and then your body is happier than it was to begin with. I am overweight but healthy, and have some really satisfying bruises from canoing last week. I'm keeping up with my bills and have acceptable credit. I have a wonderful support network of friends, siblings, parents, and loving partner. I got great GRE's and can go to any grad school I want, anytime I want, and am on Northeastern's deferral list.
Blerg transitional state. How I love and fear you.
What I Want:
-Work for Gautam for a year.
-Buy a chunk of the estate and build a house on it. (Or buy an existing house.)
-Start my own business.
-Start learning some sports in earnest: skiing, kayaking, kickboxing, yoga.
What I Have to Do:
-Get an interim job to make some money while I take classes.
Sounds so simple when you put it like that.