oh mirror, mirror, you're coming in clear, i'm finally somewhere in between...
lately i've been feeling.....weird. i feel like just screaming fuck and punching something...but i can't really pinpoint why. i think i'm just having bad luck...but it's intertwined with good luck, so it's just really confusing. work's going fairly well. teatherball is getting asked to play all these shows, but we don't really have time to practice and write new stuff before them a whole lot...but we're going to play the shows and wing it anyways. some of my classes in school have been great, but the others have just been sucking, and it's starting to remind me a lot of high school...which is depressing. i've been getting to hang out with audrey off and on lately, which is great when we do get to hang out. she asked me to go to homecoming with her...which is on sept. 30...my bday. i said yes, but forgot that we had already agreed to play a show that night. me being the antisocial asshole that i am, i would rather play a show than go to a high school homecoming. audrey decided that she would just skip homecoming and come to our show. BUTTTT then she got asked to homecoming by her friend michael who just got dumped by his gf...so audrey said yes she would go...because she figured that since homecoming started at 11 pm, she would be able to go to our show AND homecoming. really though, it probably wouldn't work that well because we would probably end up finishing playing at like 11 or so, and that woudln't leave any time to get ready and all that jazz for homecoming. so she decided that she woudln't go to our show, and just go to homecoming. this, of course, is a sad situation to me. i asked off work on my birthday so that i could have something to do and spend my time with audrey, but it turns out i'm not going to be able to now, and she'll be at homecoming having fun and i'll just go home and be bored after our show. i feel bad because i got angry on the phone with her and said some mean things, which i really shouldn't have done. i know it's not her fault that she's not going to be at our show really, but it's just really frustrating to me because nothing is really working out like i'd like it to...and to top it all off all this shit is happening on my birthday. oh well...birthdays are overrated anyways. until i turn 21 that is...then i'll just get so trashed i probably won't remember it. *siiiiiiigh* oh well i know that i still love audrey very much and she still loves me a lot so i guess everything is good...i'm just really really ready to get my birthday out of the way so everything can just get back to normal. well that was enough venting for now...i feel better :).
bye bye
bye bye