time for your daily dose of ~cheerfulness~
There are some days I'm really glad I keep a journal; today is one of those days.
22 June there is an entry in which I mention that my neck and shoulders are tied up in knots.
1 July I mention that I've been treating my neck and shoulders with generous hot pad treatment.
20 July I mention that the pain has been there for ~4 weeks and hasn't gone away.
end July - beginning Aug some dr appts, a trip to the chiro, some exams and tests, etc
17 August I got results from multiple doctor visits / x-rays, that confirmed I have degenerative arthritis in my neck/spine. some time around here I was prescribed PT, and given a daily NSAID prescription.
30 August I had a whirlwind 24-hour sky-high fever (on Tues 28 Aug) and a skin/lymph node infection on the left side of my body that lasted about a week. Also started PT this week, before the infection.
~6-7 September the infection is mostly gone, although my antibiotics last until ~11 Sept. PT twice this week.
10-14 September I come down with bronchitis, although I can't take any time off of work because the Japanese Overlords are in town and there are 8-hour meetings every day this week. I finally make it to the CVS minute clinic on Friday 14 September, have the bronchitis diagnosis confirmed, and get some drugs. PT twice this week.
19 September my last training run before the Akron Marathon, since every time I tried to run, bronchitis kicked in and was horrible. PT twice this week, once the week after. Over this weekend, I sleep 10-12+ hours every single night.
24-26 September I finally manage to take a little sick time off of work and rest.
29 September - the Akron Marathon Relay.
2 October - diagnosed with peroneal and Achilles tendonitis. Given a new heavy strength NSAID for the tendonitis. Also, given muscle relaxers to take at night since my neck/shoulders/back is still in pain and hasn't gotten better. PT this week too, twice.
It's now 8 October. My neck/back/shoulders have been bothering me since mid-June, and I've been on a variety of medications pretty much constantly - and unable to consistently work out at all - since mid-August. And I've had bronchitis for 4 weeks straight. Holy fucking shit, no wonder I have been so depressed lately. :/
I've more or less come to terms with the fact that I've got a horribly underperforming compromised immune system; I get sick more than my peers, and it sucks, but after 30 years of it, I can more or less deal. What I hate about my body is when it does this slippery-slope bullshit, this cascading series of one fucking thing after another, when I'm constantly in pain for three months running (with no end in sight) and things just continue to hit and bombard me and it's like the second I get over one thing another has been incubating and just waiting for a moment of weakness to strike. I feel so unhealthy and gross -- not only because I am literally unhealthy, but because without being able to work out at all, my body just feels useless and horrible and flabby-lumpy in addition to being in large amounts of pain and flu-achy and generally grumpy.
It's seriously depressing. And I know depression is a wily beast - I've fought her before - but it puts me in the foulest fucking moods out of absolutely nowhere. I'll start coughing or I'll sneeze and I'm reminded that I haven't felt even close to 100% in like three months and suddenly all I want to do is crawl into my bed with a cat and not come out for sixteen consecutive hours days. I end up summoning the irrational RAGE BEAST on people who don't even really deserve it, because everything fucking irritates me and I'm so frustrated at my body and my weakness and myself that I just fucking snap.
I know that being on different medications for ~8 weeks running probably isn't doing my blood chemistry any good, really. And today at lunch I'm going back to the CVS clinic to have them check out this lingering cough, and if they say I'm still sick, I'll take the afternoon off. I feel like I haven't given myself enough rest -- but at the same time I feel like I've missed so much work lately for PT and dentist appointments and afternoons where Dave kicks me out of the lab because I'm still coughing bronchitis everywhere, so how the fuck am I not better yet?
Whine whine whine J F C.
Off to go attempt to cheer myself up.
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22 June there is an entry in which I mention that my neck and shoulders are tied up in knots.
1 July I mention that I've been treating my neck and shoulders with generous hot pad treatment.
20 July I mention that the pain has been there for ~4 weeks and hasn't gone away.
end July - beginning Aug some dr appts, a trip to the chiro, some exams and tests, etc
17 August I got results from multiple doctor visits / x-rays, that confirmed I have degenerative arthritis in my neck/spine. some time around here I was prescribed PT, and given a daily NSAID prescription.
30 August I had a whirlwind 24-hour sky-high fever (on Tues 28 Aug) and a skin/lymph node infection on the left side of my body that lasted about a week. Also started PT this week, before the infection.
~6-7 September the infection is mostly gone, although my antibiotics last until ~11 Sept. PT twice this week.
10-14 September I come down with bronchitis, although I can't take any time off of work because the Japanese Overlords are in town and there are 8-hour meetings every day this week. I finally make it to the CVS minute clinic on Friday 14 September, have the bronchitis diagnosis confirmed, and get some drugs. PT twice this week.
19 September my last training run before the Akron Marathon, since every time I tried to run, bronchitis kicked in and was horrible. PT twice this week, once the week after. Over this weekend, I sleep 10-12+ hours every single night.
24-26 September I finally manage to take a little sick time off of work and rest.
29 September - the Akron Marathon Relay.
2 October - diagnosed with peroneal and Achilles tendonitis. Given a new heavy strength NSAID for the tendonitis. Also, given muscle relaxers to take at night since my neck/shoulders/back is still in pain and hasn't gotten better. PT this week too, twice.
It's now 8 October. My neck/back/shoulders have been bothering me since mid-June, and I've been on a variety of medications pretty much constantly - and unable to consistently work out at all - since mid-August. And I've had bronchitis for 4 weeks straight. Holy fucking shit, no wonder I have been so depressed lately. :/
I've more or less come to terms with the fact that I've got a horribly underperforming compromised immune system; I get sick more than my peers, and it sucks, but after 30 years of it, I can more or less deal. What I hate about my body is when it does this slippery-slope bullshit, this cascading series of one fucking thing after another, when I'm constantly in pain for three months running (with no end in sight) and things just continue to hit and bombard me and it's like the second I get over one thing another has been incubating and just waiting for a moment of weakness to strike. I feel so unhealthy and gross -- not only because I am literally unhealthy, but because without being able to work out at all, my body just feels useless and horrible and flabby-lumpy in addition to being in large amounts of pain and flu-achy and generally grumpy.
It's seriously depressing. And I know depression is a wily beast - I've fought her before - but it puts me in the foulest fucking moods out of absolutely nowhere. I'll start coughing or I'll sneeze and I'm reminded that I haven't felt even close to 100% in like three months and suddenly all I want to do is crawl into my bed with a cat and not come out for sixteen consecutive hours days. I end up summoning the irrational RAGE BEAST on people who don't even really deserve it, because everything fucking irritates me and I'm so frustrated at my body and my weakness and myself that I just fucking snap.
I know that being on different medications for ~8 weeks running probably isn't doing my blood chemistry any good, really. And today at lunch I'm going back to the CVS clinic to have them check out this lingering cough, and if they say I'm still sick, I'll take the afternoon off. I feel like I haven't given myself enough rest -- but at the same time I feel like I've missed so much work lately for PT and dentist appointments and afternoons where Dave kicks me out of the lab because I'm still coughing bronchitis everywhere, so how the fuck am I not better yet?
Whine whine whine J F C.
Off to go attempt to cheer myself up.
This entry was originally posted at http://seventhe.dreamwidth.org/328547.html, which has
comments. Comment there (with OpenID) or here, it's all good.