thought of the day

[first_seventhe]

For the record, I'm trying to post more; I've got a lot on my mind recently, and I've got a journal for a reason. I'm also trying to reply to comments more, which is something I'm bad at - I mostly reply via phone-Gmail*, at work, and it can be hard to keep up with. But anyway, I'm trying to post more consistently. For fun. And profit

Comments

[salarta]

DEAR SEV YOU HAVE BEEN MISSING OUT ON CAPSLOCK FF FOR THE PAST COUPLE DAYS

[first_seventhe]

This is a really interesting and useful comment. Let me think on it a bit. :)

[salarta]

I hope it helps! :)

[salarta]

Thanks for saying it's an awesome comment. :) Of course, it's really easy to give life advice, it's harder to follow your own sometimes. I don't have trouble with self-reflection and spending time on my own thoughts, but I do have problems with related areas that I need to work on.

[first_seventhe]

Here come some thoughts! Ha.

>>when you have free time, you try to find major activities that would require a consistent time commitment
This is so true. And I've wondered before why I do this. Part of it is just because there are so many things I want to do with my life that I haven't done, so the second I get a spare minute or two on my hands, I pick the most awesome-sounding one off of the list and throw it onto the calendar. I know that I "do" a lot. I sometimes compare my days or weeks to friends of mine and I realize that I "do" a ton of things, often more than other people in my age group or general friends circle. But there are a lot of things that I like to do and want to do? I feel like it's better to spend most of my weekend doing fun long runs and rearranging my closet and sitting out at the pool reading and brewing a beer and going to do karaoke than sitting in front of a computer reading Tumblr (or at least 8 days out of 10, and I recognize that I need those 2 recovery days). I don't want to spend my 20s/30s sitting

[salarta]

I definitely am not saying you shouldn't DO things with your 20s and 30s, in fact not doing things is a bad habit of mine that I don't have the will to improve very much.

For self-reflection, my comment was based on observation, and obviously I don't know what your whole life is like when I'm not you (but can I be for a little while? :P ). There's only so much I can know from a distance! If you've been spending a lot of time on self-reflection and just don't talk about it, then there you go, you're spending time on self-reflection after all!

You and I are both control freaks, but in different ways. :P Mine is deeply personal, and mostly based on how I handle myself, not how I approach performing activities.

Overall, only you can really know what's best for you, and I'm sure you knew that already. My comments sum up to nothing more than thoughts and suggestions based on what little of you I DO know, and I hope that whether they're right or wrong, you do what's best for you. :)

[first_seventhe]

Oh, no, I actually agree with your comment in a lot of ways. I think partly I'm filling my hours with things to do because I haven't taken the time to figure out what it is I really want to do. There's a part of me that actually really does just want to spend an hour decompressing on Tumblr every day and doesn't have a problem with that. So I think I need better self-reflection time. In a way.

It's always interesting to me to see how other people view me. Like I said to Enkida below - I wouldn't have labeled myself a Type A even a year ago, but a lot of that has just been me lying to myself about how much of a control freak I actually am and how possessive I've become. XD