my life changed.....on a bench.
today was a very long slow day. i woke up. that was really hard. getting the modivation to wake up and go on with my day. i woke up looking and feeling like i was comming down off of something. so i threw on some clothes off of my floor and stumbled out of my room. i dragged my feet across the cold wood floor and made some tea. i went back into my room and laid on the floor. the tears ran slowly down my cheeks and onto the carpet making it cold and wet.
i sat on a bench after my lunch by myself wondering if there was happiness out there. if life kept going beyond those streets that i have never been down before. i just started staring off into nothing when this man came over to me and asked me how my day was going. i looked up and him and said "you just wouldn't understand." then i started crying and i couldnt stop and i cried and cried and cried until i found myself lying on the floor in the shampoo section of savon with people looking over me asking if i was hurt. i would just kindly say "no, i am fine. but thank you for asking." they all looked really sad when they looked at me and i realized that that is how a lot people look at me, with these sad looks on their faces. no one smiles at me anymore. they just seem to tilt their heads sideways looking like they are trying to get inside of my head to figure out what is wrong with me. what is wrong with me?
i was sad all day. my sister kept asking me what was wrong and i would simply reply "im just tired" and look the other way.
but i wasnt tired. i was fine. no, i wasnt fine.
i feel like i cant go on, that i am just through with life and i am looking for bigger and better things.
someone help me get better. i will do anything. i have tried it all. trust me. just give me something to be happy about.
i sat on a bench after my lunch by myself wondering if there was happiness out there. if life kept going beyond those streets that i have never been down before. i just started staring off into nothing when this man came over to me and asked me how my day was going. i looked up and him and said "you just wouldn't understand." then i started crying and i couldnt stop and i cried and cried and cried until i found myself lying on the floor in the shampoo section of savon with people looking over me asking if i was hurt. i would just kindly say "no, i am fine. but thank you for asking." they all looked really sad when they looked at me and i realized that that is how a lot people look at me, with these sad looks on their faces. no one smiles at me anymore. they just seem to tilt their heads sideways looking like they are trying to get inside of my head to figure out what is wrong with me. what is wrong with me?
i was sad all day. my sister kept asking me what was wrong and i would simply reply "im just tired" and look the other way.
but i wasnt tired. i was fine. no, i wasnt fine.
i feel like i cant go on, that i am just through with life and i am looking for bigger and better things.
someone help me get better. i will do anything. i have tried it all. trust me. just give me something to be happy about.