A white hair on my pillow...
It's my party and I cry if I want to...
Yes, no lie... I opened my eyes this morning and the first thing I recognized was that long, curly, strong, white hair on my red pillow (No! Not my first one, but so 'obvious' lying around there...).
Normally I'm nobody who whines about such things!
Life is life, and I never had a problem with growing old. (I hated the 30-years hype Ally McBeal did!)
But girls.... 50...
Yes 50!
Time to take stock - and the result isn't positive...
All my life I was so sure that one day I would have the right man at my side, together with children and all that - that I never really got worried about it. It's true! And now it's too late...
OK! So time to change some things!
First - I won't waste any more time with Pros!!! *slams fist on the table*
Good joke, eh? :-)
OK... let's see, but there must happen something...
Something else.
I didn't want to make some secret about my birthday...
I'm just not a friend of the LJ individual posts. I don't want my friends to feel the need to post something. And I don't want to be forced to post something for their birthdays - when I'm not in the mood...
I really would prefer something like that here, where we could (hopefully) come together and talk about life a bit!
Don't get me wrong! I was happy about Liriel's story this morning, and Gabi's beautiful Bodie art!
- and the nice wishes and cats from Bianca!!! :-)
But I wouldn't want to count, and to remember 'this friend has posted something, this one not... what's wrong with me...' or 'this friend got 20 posts, I only 5...' or 'this year I won't make a post for this friend, because I didn't like what she has said there...' or or or...
Does anybody understand what I mean????
I'm strange, am I?
Sigh... maybe it's the right place to aoplogize if I'd been recently a bit absent, crusted, maybe even biting, moody or brusque... (is that all the same?)!
All that damn midlife crisis to blame... But I promise solemnly to be a nice girl old woman in the future!
*snif*
(If I read that again, I delete it probably! So sorry for the mistakes!)
Yes, no lie... I opened my eyes this morning and the first thing I recognized was that long, curly, strong, white hair on my red pillow (No! Not my first one, but so 'obvious' lying around there...).
Normally I'm nobody who whines about such things!
Life is life, and I never had a problem with growing old. (I hated the 30-years hype Ally McBeal did!)
But girls.... 50...
Yes 50!
Time to take stock - and the result isn't positive...
All my life I was so sure that one day I would have the right man at my side, together with children and all that - that I never really got worried about it. It's true! And now it's too late...
OK! So time to change some things!
First - I won't waste any more time with Pros!!! *slams fist on the table*
Good joke, eh? :-)
OK... let's see, but there must happen something...
Something else.
I didn't want to make some secret about my birthday...
I'm just not a friend of the LJ individual posts. I don't want my friends to feel the need to post something. And I don't want to be forced to post something for their birthdays - when I'm not in the mood...
I really would prefer something like that here, where we could (hopefully) come together and talk about life a bit!
Don't get me wrong! I was happy about Liriel's story this morning, and Gabi's beautiful Bodie art!
- and the nice wishes and cats from Bianca!!! :-)
But I wouldn't want to count, and to remember 'this friend has posted something, this one not... what's wrong with me...' or 'this friend got 20 posts, I only 5...' or 'this year I won't make a post for this friend, because I didn't like what she has said there...' or or or...
Does anybody understand what I mean????
I'm strange, am I?
Sigh... maybe it's the right place to aoplogize if I'd been recently a bit absent, crusted, maybe even biting, moody or brusque... (is that all the same?)!
All that damn midlife crisis to blame... But I promise solemnly to be a nice girl old woman in the future!
*snif*
(If I read that again, I delete it probably! So sorry for the mistakes!)