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Title: No Expectations
Chapter: Three
Author: firiel77
Word Count: 2118
Warnings: WIP, Mpreg, somewhat implausible medical jargon
Rating:R,
Pairings: Adam/Tommy
Summary: Tommy’s just feeling a bit off. Set about five years in the future.
Disclaimer: This is fiction people.
Feedback: Sure. Let me know what’s working for you.
Authors Notes: I never thought I’d do it but this is a big old MPreg. Read if you dare. It’s also a WIP and I’m not sure where it will go yet although it will probably be fairly long and I’ve got quite a few chapters roughed out. I’ve just been seeing people pining for domestic fics and (gulp) babies so thought I’d give it a shot. Unbeta’d because I’m too scared to ask redorchid to read this puppy. :D
It took them a little while to find the next office because neither of them were familiar with the area. Tommy was ushered in immediately when they arrived; his doctor had phoned ahead and asked that he be seen right away. The geneticist proved to be a pleasant young woman who looked up from her paperwork and indicated that they should sit on the leather couch.
“Come in, sit down.” She sank into a chair opposite them and said, “I’m Rose. Please excuse the mess.”
She waved her arm dismissively at the piles of textbooks and papers scattered around and then leaned forward towards them. “Your doctor didn’t tell me anything on the phone just that you needed to be seen urgently. What’s going on?”
Tommy said, “I’m Tommy, and this is my…” and his voice faltered, “friend, Adam. I went to my doctor because I haven’t um...been feeling well. He could feel a lump in my abdomen and thought I had a tumour so he sent me for an ultrasound. And it’s not. It’s not a tumour. The ultrasound showed it had a heartbeat. So there’s a foetus inside me.”
There was a choking noise beside him from Adam.
Tommy found there was some satisfaction in dropping it on Adam with no warning. He held out the DVD of his ultrasound scan to Rose who took it from him. She got up and put it in her computer and waited while the images loaded. She took a couple minutes to review them all before coming back to her chair.
“So, I take it this is a spontaneous event?
Tommy looked at her blankly for a moment and then nodded.
“And you want to how the hell this happened.”
Tommy nodded and said, “Jesus, I’m a guy. I should be worrying about getting someone else pregnant.”
Rose leant forward again. “The evidence says otherwise. Sometimes things are not quite so cut and dried. Occasionally people are born sexually ambiguous, that is with sexual characteristics from both sexes, although it is quite uncommon. It’s usually picked up at birth or at puberty when things don’t progress as expected. What made you first think that something was happening to you? What changes have you noticed since twelve weeks ago?”
Adam reached over and took Tommy’s hand; it was the first time he’d touched Tommy all day.
Tommy blinked and said, “I’ve been impotent since then. Completely. That’s why I went to see my doctor today. I’ve been really tired and kind of down. My doctor gave me a check up and that’s when he found the lump.”
His voice shook a little when he spoke and Adam’s fingers tightened in a comforting squeeze.
Rose leant over and patted Tommy’s knee. “How about I try and work out how this has happened? If we can figure that out it might make this a bit easier to understand. I gather you’ve had no sign of anything like menstruation.”
Tommy shook his head. “No, never.”
“What about episodes of abdominal pain?”
Tommy shook his head again, and Rose said, “I want to examine you closely, do an ultrasound, have a look around so to speak.”
“I’ve already had an ultrasound, can’t you tell from that one?”
Rose smiled. “No. I’ll be doing a different type. More detailed. You know the routine by now, lose your clothes, put a robe on and hop up onto the table, and I’ll go warm the gel up.”
As Tommy pulled his T-shirt over his head and stood up, Adam’s voice was low beside him. “Why didn’t you say anything when I picked you up? Jesus, you could have told me, Tommy. Do you think I’m enough of a bastard to drive off like Carmen did?”
Tommy undid the button of his jeans, sat on the edge of the table and started to cry.
Adam pulled him immediately into a hug and Tommy sat there with his face pressed against Adam's shoulder while Rose busied herself with the ultrasound machine, keeping her back turned to them.
Adam stroked Tommy’s hair and said, “Let’s just find out what’s going on, okay?”
Tommy nodded, pushed his jeans off, pulled his legs up onto the table and leant back against the pillow. Rose pulled a pair of gloves on and said, “This is going to be intrusive, Tommy. Would you like Adam to wait outside?”
Tommy shook his head. There wasn’t anything Adam hadn’t seen before. The latex gloves felt strange as Rose guided his thighs open and pulled the spotlight behind her around to shine on him.
She looked up after a couple of minutes and said, “If you had been referred to me as an infant I would certainly have recommended raising you male. Externally, everything is standard for a male.” She pulled his robe open for a moment and examined his nipples and chest too, and looked at his face closely.
“Have you noticed any changes at all? Needing to shave less often? Nipple soreness?” she asked.
Running his hand over his cheek, Tommy said, “Shaving less, yes, though I haven’t thought about why at all.”
“Penis and testicle shrinking?”
Tommy looked at Rose and flushed a little. “Um, maybe, but I thought it was because of the impotence.”
Rose lifted the bottle of gel and said, “Alright, let’s take a look.”
Tommy jumped when she pressed the probe against his scrotum, and Adam’s hand tightened its grip on his shoulder.
“Try to hold still. I know it’s a bit cold,” Rose told him.
She pushed keys on her keyboard with one hand and then pointed at the screen. “See that? That’s a normal testis.” She moved the probe and said, “And on the other side is fibrous tissue but no testis. Not something you’d pick up unless you were looking for it.”
She began to run the probe over his abdomen, starting at his pubic bone and sweeping upwards, pausing near his right hip bone.
“Ok, found it.” she said. “Look there, that’s an ovary and that below it, is a rudimentary fallopian tube. That’s where the egg’s come from. And there it is.” Rose pressed in firmly over what Tommy was beginning to think of as his lump and studied what she saw on the screen thoughtfully.
It’s quite early on of course but it certainly looks to be a viable foetus. If you look closely you can see the yolk sac, the neural tube, and there’s the heart. Tommy watched the screen carefully for the first time. At the ultrasound clinic he had been too panicked and shocked to really understand what he was seeing.
“Shit,” Tommy said. “This is real, isn’t it?” and the tears he thought had stopped started again.
Rose patted his leg. “Very real.” She moved the probe away from the foetus and went back to scanning his abdomen.
“I can’t find anything like a uterus at all, not even a hemi-uterus. I can see that the placenta has attached to your large bowel. That in itself is not a disastrous thing; there are a number of cases where such pregnancies have gone almost full term.”
She frowned a little and then said, “I’m trying to figure out how this egg got fertilized. I gather you’ve had sex with a man at about the right time?”
Adam gulped a little and dragged his gaze away from the screen to glance at Tommy’s face, and he blinked back his own tears. “We had sex in March without a condom. Is that about the right time?”
Rose thought a moment and nodded. “That sounds right. I’m just going to switch to a different probe now and see if I can’t find a vagina. Hold on a second. She pressed some more buttons and scanned Tommy’s lower abdomen from a different angle. Tommy stared up at the ceiling and concentrated on the poster there.
“Ok, there it is, very subtle though. You’ve got a small vagina, but it’s not opening at your perineum. It ends in a tiny fistula in your rectum. Mystery solved. It’s not a very big opening but sperm don’t need much.”
She wiped the transducer off and hung it back up on the ultrasound machine.
“Of course, if it had opened at your perineum, you would have been diagnosed at birth and case management in the past was pretty brutal. Something horrendous would have been done to you to do what they politely called ‘normalize’ your genitals.”
She pushed back the machine, washed her hands and then sat back down opposite the sofa, a clipboard in her hands, while Tommy got dressed again.
Adam held Tommy’s hand when they sat down again. Tommy cleared his throat and asked, “What do I do now?”
Rose looked at him thoughtfully. “I want you to come back to see me in a couple days. You need to decide whether you want to continue the pregnancy or not. The foetus looks good to me at this point but there’s a long way to go. You need to know though that there is a significant mortality rate for both foetus and parent in these cases although that can be minimized with close monitoring and thorough prenatal care.”
I’ll be referring you to an obstetrician in either case. She will be able to explain the risks with you in a lot more detail but basically you will be looking at having a caesarean with the associated surgical risks that involves. Also, abdominal pregnancies almost never go full tern so the risk of complications with the baby go up there as well though they certainly are manageable.”
Tommy nodded soberly. To be honest, he didn’t really understand a lot of what Rose was talking about. It was all like a nightmare that wouldn’t stop. His ears were ringing and he noticed odd things like how hot and sweaty Adam’s hand was around his.
Rose pushed her glasses up on her forehead. “No matter what outcome you choose for the pregnancy you will be offered surgery to alter your body.”
Tommy gazed at Rose in horror for a moment until she smiled reassuringly.
“Don’t worry. I’m not talking about anything too drastic. In a case like this, where you clearly appear male, we can remove your female reproductive organs immediately after the caesarean is performed. And you will get your sex life back. The impotence is in response to the pregnancy hormones; when the pregnancy is over that should resolve itself.”
**********************************
Tommy stood uncertainly at the door, Adam’s fingers wrapped around his elbow for guidance. “Thank you, Rose,” he said.
Adam added, “Yes, thank you for seeing us so soon.”
Rose smiled and said, “I don’t mind in the least. It was nice to meet the two of you.”
In the car park, Adam held the passenger door open for Tommy and said, “Where do you want to go? Would you rather come to my place?”
Tommy squeezed his eyes shut for a moment. “Your place if it’s ok. Carmen has keys to my condo and I can’t deal with seeing her again right now.”
Adam slid into the driver’s seat and started the car. “She knows?”
“Some of it. She knows about the baby and that I let some guy fuck me. She figured that much out. She doesn’t know it was you.” Tommy leant his head back against the seat rest. “Do you think she’ll tell anyone?”
Adam considered it a moment and then shrugged. “I think she’ll be too worried about her own image and career to say anything that might reflect badly on it. Honestly? I think she’ll just hate you in silence.”
“I hope so. I can deal with that. Out of everything that’s happened, Carmen hating me just doesn’t seem like a big deal right now.
To be continued....
Chapter: Three
Author: firiel77
Word Count: 2118
Warnings: WIP, Mpreg, somewhat implausible medical jargon
Rating:R,
Pairings: Adam/Tommy
Summary: Tommy’s just feeling a bit off. Set about five years in the future.
Disclaimer: This is fiction people.
Feedback: Sure. Let me know what’s working for you.
Authors Notes: I never thought I’d do it but this is a big old MPreg. Read if you dare. It’s also a WIP and I’m not sure where it will go yet although it will probably be fairly long and I’ve got quite a few chapters roughed out. I’ve just been seeing people pining for domestic fics and (gulp) babies so thought I’d give it a shot. Unbeta’d because I’m too scared to ask redorchid to read this puppy. :D
It took them a little while to find the next office because neither of them were familiar with the area. Tommy was ushered in immediately when they arrived; his doctor had phoned ahead and asked that he be seen right away. The geneticist proved to be a pleasant young woman who looked up from her paperwork and indicated that they should sit on the leather couch.
“Come in, sit down.” She sank into a chair opposite them and said, “I’m Rose. Please excuse the mess.”
She waved her arm dismissively at the piles of textbooks and papers scattered around and then leaned forward towards them. “Your doctor didn’t tell me anything on the phone just that you needed to be seen urgently. What’s going on?”
Tommy said, “I’m Tommy, and this is my…” and his voice faltered, “friend, Adam. I went to my doctor because I haven’t um...been feeling well. He could feel a lump in my abdomen and thought I had a tumour so he sent me for an ultrasound. And it’s not. It’s not a tumour. The ultrasound showed it had a heartbeat. So there’s a foetus inside me.”
There was a choking noise beside him from Adam.
Tommy found there was some satisfaction in dropping it on Adam with no warning. He held out the DVD of his ultrasound scan to Rose who took it from him. She got up and put it in her computer and waited while the images loaded. She took a couple minutes to review them all before coming back to her chair.
“So, I take it this is a spontaneous event?
Tommy looked at her blankly for a moment and then nodded.
“And you want to how the hell this happened.”
Tommy nodded and said, “Jesus, I’m a guy. I should be worrying about getting someone else pregnant.”
Rose leant forward again. “The evidence says otherwise. Sometimes things are not quite so cut and dried. Occasionally people are born sexually ambiguous, that is with sexual characteristics from both sexes, although it is quite uncommon. It’s usually picked up at birth or at puberty when things don’t progress as expected. What made you first think that something was happening to you? What changes have you noticed since twelve weeks ago?”
Adam reached over and took Tommy’s hand; it was the first time he’d touched Tommy all day.
Tommy blinked and said, “I’ve been impotent since then. Completely. That’s why I went to see my doctor today. I’ve been really tired and kind of down. My doctor gave me a check up and that’s when he found the lump.”
His voice shook a little when he spoke and Adam’s fingers tightened in a comforting squeeze.
Rose leant over and patted Tommy’s knee. “How about I try and work out how this has happened? If we can figure that out it might make this a bit easier to understand. I gather you’ve had no sign of anything like menstruation.”
Tommy shook his head. “No, never.”
“What about episodes of abdominal pain?”
Tommy shook his head again, and Rose said, “I want to examine you closely, do an ultrasound, have a look around so to speak.”
“I’ve already had an ultrasound, can’t you tell from that one?”
Rose smiled. “No. I’ll be doing a different type. More detailed. You know the routine by now, lose your clothes, put a robe on and hop up onto the table, and I’ll go warm the gel up.”
As Tommy pulled his T-shirt over his head and stood up, Adam’s voice was low beside him. “Why didn’t you say anything when I picked you up? Jesus, you could have told me, Tommy. Do you think I’m enough of a bastard to drive off like Carmen did?”
Tommy undid the button of his jeans, sat on the edge of the table and started to cry.
Adam pulled him immediately into a hug and Tommy sat there with his face pressed against Adam's shoulder while Rose busied herself with the ultrasound machine, keeping her back turned to them.
Adam stroked Tommy’s hair and said, “Let’s just find out what’s going on, okay?”
Tommy nodded, pushed his jeans off, pulled his legs up onto the table and leant back against the pillow. Rose pulled a pair of gloves on and said, “This is going to be intrusive, Tommy. Would you like Adam to wait outside?”
Tommy shook his head. There wasn’t anything Adam hadn’t seen before. The latex gloves felt strange as Rose guided his thighs open and pulled the spotlight behind her around to shine on him.
She looked up after a couple of minutes and said, “If you had been referred to me as an infant I would certainly have recommended raising you male. Externally, everything is standard for a male.” She pulled his robe open for a moment and examined his nipples and chest too, and looked at his face closely.
“Have you noticed any changes at all? Needing to shave less often? Nipple soreness?” she asked.
Running his hand over his cheek, Tommy said, “Shaving less, yes, though I haven’t thought about why at all.”
“Penis and testicle shrinking?”
Tommy looked at Rose and flushed a little. “Um, maybe, but I thought it was because of the impotence.”
Rose lifted the bottle of gel and said, “Alright, let’s take a look.”
Tommy jumped when she pressed the probe against his scrotum, and Adam’s hand tightened its grip on his shoulder.
“Try to hold still. I know it’s a bit cold,” Rose told him.
She pushed keys on her keyboard with one hand and then pointed at the screen. “See that? That’s a normal testis.” She moved the probe and said, “And on the other side is fibrous tissue but no testis. Not something you’d pick up unless you were looking for it.”
She began to run the probe over his abdomen, starting at his pubic bone and sweeping upwards, pausing near his right hip bone.
“Ok, found it.” she said. “Look there, that’s an ovary and that below it, is a rudimentary fallopian tube. That’s where the egg’s come from. And there it is.” Rose pressed in firmly over what Tommy was beginning to think of as his lump and studied what she saw on the screen thoughtfully.
It’s quite early on of course but it certainly looks to be a viable foetus. If you look closely you can see the yolk sac, the neural tube, and there’s the heart. Tommy watched the screen carefully for the first time. At the ultrasound clinic he had been too panicked and shocked to really understand what he was seeing.
“Shit,” Tommy said. “This is real, isn’t it?” and the tears he thought had stopped started again.
Rose patted his leg. “Very real.” She moved the probe away from the foetus and went back to scanning his abdomen.
“I can’t find anything like a uterus at all, not even a hemi-uterus. I can see that the placenta has attached to your large bowel. That in itself is not a disastrous thing; there are a number of cases where such pregnancies have gone almost full term.”
She frowned a little and then said, “I’m trying to figure out how this egg got fertilized. I gather you’ve had sex with a man at about the right time?”
Adam gulped a little and dragged his gaze away from the screen to glance at Tommy’s face, and he blinked back his own tears. “We had sex in March without a condom. Is that about the right time?”
Rose thought a moment and nodded. “That sounds right. I’m just going to switch to a different probe now and see if I can’t find a vagina. Hold on a second. She pressed some more buttons and scanned Tommy’s lower abdomen from a different angle. Tommy stared up at the ceiling and concentrated on the poster there.
“Ok, there it is, very subtle though. You’ve got a small vagina, but it’s not opening at your perineum. It ends in a tiny fistula in your rectum. Mystery solved. It’s not a very big opening but sperm don’t need much.”
She wiped the transducer off and hung it back up on the ultrasound machine.
“Of course, if it had opened at your perineum, you would have been diagnosed at birth and case management in the past was pretty brutal. Something horrendous would have been done to you to do what they politely called ‘normalize’ your genitals.”
She pushed back the machine, washed her hands and then sat back down opposite the sofa, a clipboard in her hands, while Tommy got dressed again.
Adam held Tommy’s hand when they sat down again. Tommy cleared his throat and asked, “What do I do now?”
Rose looked at him thoughtfully. “I want you to come back to see me in a couple days. You need to decide whether you want to continue the pregnancy or not. The foetus looks good to me at this point but there’s a long way to go. You need to know though that there is a significant mortality rate for both foetus and parent in these cases although that can be minimized with close monitoring and thorough prenatal care.”
I’ll be referring you to an obstetrician in either case. She will be able to explain the risks with you in a lot more detail but basically you will be looking at having a caesarean with the associated surgical risks that involves. Also, abdominal pregnancies almost never go full tern so the risk of complications with the baby go up there as well though they certainly are manageable.”
Tommy nodded soberly. To be honest, he didn’t really understand a lot of what Rose was talking about. It was all like a nightmare that wouldn’t stop. His ears were ringing and he noticed odd things like how hot and sweaty Adam’s hand was around his.
Rose pushed her glasses up on her forehead. “No matter what outcome you choose for the pregnancy you will be offered surgery to alter your body.”
Tommy gazed at Rose in horror for a moment until she smiled reassuringly.
“Don’t worry. I’m not talking about anything too drastic. In a case like this, where you clearly appear male, we can remove your female reproductive organs immediately after the caesarean is performed. And you will get your sex life back. The impotence is in response to the pregnancy hormones; when the pregnancy is over that should resolve itself.”
**********************************
Tommy stood uncertainly at the door, Adam’s fingers wrapped around his elbow for guidance. “Thank you, Rose,” he said.
Adam added, “Yes, thank you for seeing us so soon.”
Rose smiled and said, “I don’t mind in the least. It was nice to meet the two of you.”
In the car park, Adam held the passenger door open for Tommy and said, “Where do you want to go? Would you rather come to my place?”
Tommy squeezed his eyes shut for a moment. “Your place if it’s ok. Carmen has keys to my condo and I can’t deal with seeing her again right now.”
Adam slid into the driver’s seat and started the car. “She knows?”
“Some of it. She knows about the baby and that I let some guy fuck me. She figured that much out. She doesn’t know it was you.” Tommy leant his head back against the seat rest. “Do you think she’ll tell anyone?”
Adam considered it a moment and then shrugged. “I think she’ll be too worried about her own image and career to say anything that might reflect badly on it. Honestly? I think she’ll just hate you in silence.”
“I hope so. I can deal with that. Out of everything that’s happened, Carmen hating me just doesn’t seem like a big deal right now.
To be continued....