Here I am, once again, I’m torn into pieces
So..things right now are..well..stagnant i suppose. At a stand still..basically im just waiting for my birthday, graduation, my new job, yanno, all the fun stuff.
Past week: Jons a few times, daves bonfire, nothin big, just the usual. I still gotta find a dress for graduation, and new work clothes, so much to buy, so little money.
I need to stop getting so stressed and paranoid, i swear to God its gonna kill me. I worry about EVERYTHING. If i dont know EXACTLY whats going on, i freak out, and i scare myself. Now that i have a car, it helps a little, im able to keep myself more busy, and im more in control of certain situations. Im letting stupid stuff REALLY get to me, and ive become such a mean person because of it. It just bothers me, i dont understand how people can say certain things under certain circumstances, it makes me think whats really going on, then my mind just wanders some more, and thats when i make myself sick. I wish it was that easy, that easy to just stop doing what im doing, stop thinking so much, stop looking too deep into things, and be a lot more secure about things.
Graduation Party: July 16, its a nightparty, bonfire, and other night festivities. It'll be a good time.
Everyones busy today, its crazy. Its soo hot out, all i wanna do is swim.
Tomorrows Sunday. I really dont wanna think about tomorrow right now.
Past week: Jons a few times, daves bonfire, nothin big, just the usual. I still gotta find a dress for graduation, and new work clothes, so much to buy, so little money.
I need to stop getting so stressed and paranoid, i swear to God its gonna kill me. I worry about EVERYTHING. If i dont know EXACTLY whats going on, i freak out, and i scare myself. Now that i have a car, it helps a little, im able to keep myself more busy, and im more in control of certain situations. Im letting stupid stuff REALLY get to me, and ive become such a mean person because of it. It just bothers me, i dont understand how people can say certain things under certain circumstances, it makes me think whats really going on, then my mind just wanders some more, and thats when i make myself sick. I wish it was that easy, that easy to just stop doing what im doing, stop thinking so much, stop looking too deep into things, and be a lot more secure about things.
Graduation Party: July 16, its a nightparty, bonfire, and other night festivities. It'll be a good time.
Everyones busy today, its crazy. Its soo hot out, all i wanna do is swim.
Tomorrows Sunday. I really dont wanna think about tomorrow right now.