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I want to write. But my brain doesn't want to let the words come out, and my fingers aren't working right. There's so many things I want to put on paper, but I don't have a clue where to begin. Then when I finally do start to write, my words don't match what's in my head and I get this jumbled mess of thoughts that, after reading, I didn't even realize I was thinking about. Perhaps I don't know what I'm thinking about, therefore my hand just writes what it knows to be in my head, and the ink flows over the paper, and my words are blurry, and my head is foggy, and my heart aches. Yet I can't seem to force myself to put the words on paper that I need to. Or is it that I don't know what those words are so how could I possibly put them down on paper? I just feel stuck, and I don't know how to get out of this place. I need to write and I need to make it come out the way I want it to, because that's the only way I'll get unstuck.