whatever.
I'm really not sure exactly what my "problem" is... i mean i am depressed, and have a fair amount of anxiety..i GET that... and i cope as well as i can...but i mean... why can't i just handle life???? i feel unfulfilled regardless of what's happening...i feel alone in a crowd, i don't ever feel like i am included, even when i am...and then after a period of time of being down... i'm no longer really included or invited to do shit...find out about after the fact, and am told..."aww ya should've just come over..." ------what?!!? if i don't know there is something going on...and other people i know are there...actually most of the people i know...if i ain't asked to join...why would i arbitrarily just go somewhere... (perhaps this isn't a great example as i haven't been invited to much of anything for quite some time)...most of it stems from not having money...even when i am working... my money has been spoken for typically...bills etc... bottomline... i am failing at life....all aspects, aside from breathing and my heart still beating...and all things biological...all of which i have limited control over...haha thankfully.
another observation... i am just as whiny a' piece of shit as i was a decade ago...