On my existence a little..
Blah blah, yes it's been years but now I'm compelled.
I'm a fucking coward. I'll just say that right now. I have a fear of change. Not irrational or without reason, but enough to make things complicated. Change. It's enough to make me grunt when I read it. After spending multiple years in flux and moving in and out of dumps and whatever other place I could get myself and a room mate into, I've become paranoid about living space. Namely having a place to stay with my pet.
I need to change something. My life style. A new job. I fully intended to have a place, job and beautiful girlfriend. I almost did. I want to try again.
Bah, I'm rambling. It's 2 am and I'm just throwing junk out there.
It's probably best no one read this because I'm sure I would end up making people aggro or something.
Why can I say it so easily now when I can't? When I could I was mute. I fucking hate that kind of thing. I was working on it though..
I'm a fucking coward. I'll just say that right now. I have a fear of change. Not irrational or without reason, but enough to make things complicated. Change. It's enough to make me grunt when I read it. After spending multiple years in flux and moving in and out of dumps and whatever other place I could get myself and a room mate into, I've become paranoid about living space. Namely having a place to stay with my pet.
I need to change something. My life style. A new job. I fully intended to have a place, job and beautiful girlfriend. I almost did. I want to try again.
Bah, I'm rambling. It's 2 am and I'm just throwing junk out there.
It's probably best no one read this because I'm sure I would end up making people aggro or something.
Why can I say it so easily now when I can't? When I could I was mute. I fucking hate that kind of thing. I was working on it though..