Crazy? Don't mind if I do!
Today was exciting, I ended up going to the hospital for an assesment of what the hell is wrong with my head lately. This was something that was in the works for a while now. I'm not crazy, I don't think. I mean everyone has to be a little disturbed now-a-days.
Either way I still have to get my head checked for the usual suspects: Schizophrenia, chemical imbalances and all that shit.
It feels like things are out of control sometimes. Is it my fault that I do not have a mechanism to cope with the rigors of daily life in a high cost, high risk life style of Hawaii? I'm not sure, all that I -am- sure of that it's something I can take control of. <-- Sure I keep saying that, but sometimes that mantra does not cut the bullshit.
I am the god-master of my domain, or so I would like to believe, however there are times where the real me feels like some sort of migrant worker in my fields, than the lord of my destiny.
They told me not to catastrophise (yes it's a real word) my life, but sometimes all I can think of are the negatives. I know it's unhealthy, but how do I change something I have only (laughably) near cosmetic only control of?
Either way I still have to get my head checked for the usual suspects: Schizophrenia, chemical imbalances and all that shit.
It feels like things are out of control sometimes. Is it my fault that I do not have a mechanism to cope with the rigors of daily life in a high cost, high risk life style of Hawaii? I'm not sure, all that I -am- sure of that it's something I can take control of. <-- Sure I keep saying that, but sometimes that mantra does not cut the bullshit.
I am the god-master of my domain, or so I would like to believe, however there are times where the real me feels like some sort of migrant worker in my fields, than the lord of my destiny.
They told me not to catastrophise (yes it's a real word) my life, but sometimes all I can think of are the negatives. I know it's unhealthy, but how do I change something I have only (laughably) near cosmetic only control of?