the days fall away
23 days left before i leave for the navy. i was thinking about it a lot last night. it kept me up for a few hours. for the first time i was actually getting scared about going. i suppose that is the reason why i couldnt fall asleep. but by the end of it i was alright. the things is, when i think about what i'm going to be leaving, and how drastically my life is going to change, and about all the doubts i have about myself and whether or not i'm prepared for this or not, then i get scared. but when i think about the things i'm gonna get to do and the places that the navy is going to take me, i get excited about it. and then everything is fine. the way i figure it is, as i have it planned out right now, my navy carreer takes up my years as an 18yr old, 19yr old, and most of my early twenties. i have the choice to leave the navy at 24. basically, almost all my time before i want to seriosuly start thinking about having a family, save 3 or 4 years since i want a family when around 27. but anyway, the point is that these next few years is my time. my time to become the adult that i want to be. my time to go on my own adventures. and my time to really put myself to test. granted, i'll miss everyone back home. but that goes without saying. and yeah, i promised myself that i'll be coming home a better person. beam saber and all 8-)