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So I decided to update after a while. It's quite hard for me to try and commit to one person. He didn't ask me to, and we both decided that it was ok for both of us to go have fun and make out with people and all. The fact that he told me he loved me complicates things for me. Yes I answered that I loved him too, its true I do, but I think I'm starting to have second thoughts about that. I heavily made out with someone two nights ago, and it just was soo different and I kept wishing it was him. There's that that changed. I just don't want to sound like i'm in absolute need of him, it's scary. On another note I'm scared my bulemia is kicking in again. This is the second night that i binged and threw up. I really have to stop doing that. I'm working out, and i started eating right, I just don't know why i have to do that to myself. Anyways, i'll talk about that later.