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5:42 AM - ...
Current mood: nauseated
Category: Life
I am freaking out....this whole link thing, i like him, i can say i really like him. Most people feel happy when they like someone, i don't. i freak out, I feel horrible, i've been wanting to throw up for the past hours. I haven't had any sleep, and i feel like i'm wired on something. Even caffeine doesn't do this to me. I don't know him much, i'm already making plans to go see him during thanksgiving. (Kristi, i love you, but i spent a while talking to link about this, don't hate me). I don't even know if he really means what he's been saying to me. Like i don't want to show up there and be like crap what the hell am i doing here. right now i am an emotional ball of nerves. It never happens, seriously, and now its just OH MY GOD! I was outside smoking saying loudly oh my god like 10 million times. I just don't want to be emotionally screwed over, i mean he seems like an awesome guy and he's really sweet, but I've been emotionally screwed over, when I felt like this and then it was like hey emotions? this is just physical or sth like that. It's always that way. It doesn't help that he's leaving for afghanistan on jan 29th, it sucks a lot. I can't express any of what i'm feeling in words. i don't know its a mixture of that and a lot of other things. i have to go to class so i'm going to leave this here.
Currently listening:
Butterfly Kisses & Bedtime Prayers
By Bob Carlisle
Release date: By 27 January, 1998
Current mood: nauseated
Category: Life
I am freaking out....this whole link thing, i like him, i can say i really like him. Most people feel happy when they like someone, i don't. i freak out, I feel horrible, i've been wanting to throw up for the past hours. I haven't had any sleep, and i feel like i'm wired on something. Even caffeine doesn't do this to me. I don't know him much, i'm already making plans to go see him during thanksgiving. (Kristi, i love you, but i spent a while talking to link about this, don't hate me). I don't even know if he really means what he's been saying to me. Like i don't want to show up there and be like crap what the hell am i doing here. right now i am an emotional ball of nerves. It never happens, seriously, and now its just OH MY GOD! I was outside smoking saying loudly oh my god like 10 million times. I just don't want to be emotionally screwed over, i mean he seems like an awesome guy and he's really sweet, but I've been emotionally screwed over, when I felt like this and then it was like hey emotions? this is just physical or sth like that. It's always that way. It doesn't help that he's leaving for afghanistan on jan 29th, it sucks a lot. I can't express any of what i'm feeling in words. i don't know its a mixture of that and a lot of other things. i have to go to class so i'm going to leave this here.
Currently listening:
Butterfly Kisses & Bedtime Prayers
By Bob Carlisle
Release date: By 27 January, 1998