Journal #15.
Dear livejournal.com,
Well today, I just found out how selfish of a friend I am. I used to think that I was an okay friend, and I understood the people I loved. I realized how wrong that was when I read my friend's journal. It's not her fault that I’m writing this [saying this for precautions], but I guess everybody is right about me and that I’m really self centered. I never wanted to hurt anybody, and yet I do it every day. I always thought of her as my very bestest friend ever, and I realize that I don't know her at all. Maybe I just don't need friends anymore, because I realize that I’m pushing everybody away. The people who really care I push away, and those that don't care much I try to pull closer. This is the first time in days that I’m sitting here and thinking about what I’m really doing to my friends, and realize that sometimes that maybe I shouldn't hold my friends back. They’re the most important thing to me ever...Melissa, Cathy, Sally, Jessie, and Amy. They’re my whole world, and yet I don’t have the time to ask them. >.<
My goal: 1. Stop ranting to my friends. 2. Learn to understand them. 3. Realize that they have problems too.
That’s all I’m gonna say for now. Journal ya later~
Knowing it's always my fault,
DiNoY