who the hell is Leisa?
i'm having an existential crisis. my life is an utter abyss of meaninglessness. why? because i am, and always have been, a complete mash up of conflicting personalities. no, literally. everything i say i am is in complete conflict with something else i claim to be. and i'm getting to that age when i feel like I NEED TO PICK A SIDE ALREADY. and it's getting really difficult to live with myself in my head.
i want to be a free spirit, but equally, i thrive in structure and organization. i love nature, going out, and exploring the connections between humans, but equally, people drive me insane, and i love being alone with my thoughts, a good book, and silence.
i call myself an artist, but i think in linear terms. what i'm best at is organizing, keeping a calendar, time management, and various other Virgo things. but half my brain struggles for something deeper. i try to write, i try to paint, i try to take photos, but everything i make ends falling way short of my own expectations.
how am i supposed to live like this? feeling like i'm two different people trapped inside one brain? how am i supposed to pick a future, pick a career, pick a city to move to, when everything i think i want is conflicting with itself??
i've been letting myself coast for months, hoping that my future would figure itself out, or some opportunity would present itself that made the choice more clear. but it hasn't and i'm getting impatient. i want to know who i am before it's too late for me to do anything about it.
i want to be a free spirit, but equally, i thrive in structure and organization. i love nature, going out, and exploring the connections between humans, but equally, people drive me insane, and i love being alone with my thoughts, a good book, and silence.
i call myself an artist, but i think in linear terms. what i'm best at is organizing, keeping a calendar, time management, and various other Virgo things. but half my brain struggles for something deeper. i try to write, i try to paint, i try to take photos, but everything i make ends falling way short of my own expectations.
how am i supposed to live like this? feeling like i'm two different people trapped inside one brain? how am i supposed to pick a future, pick a career, pick a city to move to, when everything i think i want is conflicting with itself??
i've been letting myself coast for months, hoping that my future would figure itself out, or some opportunity would present itself that made the choice more clear. but it hasn't and i'm getting impatient. i want to know who i am before it's too late for me to do anything about it.