Screwed up dream
Last night I had one of the wierdest dreams. one of those dreams where it seems s realistic that you can almost touch the persons hair.
It started with Jess Calling me and telling me she got my letter, the one I had sent her a while back via email. She said it was one of the sweetest things she had ever read. I was all like YAY!!! it's working she is coming back to me. And then Sh said she would be over in a bit. And next thing I know she is over at my house and I tell her how much I missed her and I go to touch her and my hand goes through her. I woke up and was like FUCK!!!! THAT IS BULLSHIT> DON:T DO THAT TO ME. I can't hand;e it. and when went back to sleep, it continued, but it was different, she felt different, she said she was moving to Lake Cowichan, for good. and I was like oh, well, why? and that was it. I was so angry and dissapointed and screwed up that I couldnt sleep anymore. I didnt want to know or want to hear what she had t say.
I wanted her to stay with me. to move in with me. and to BE with me.
She really is one of the most amazing people I've ever met. I didnt think her will was as strog as it is, but appearently she really does not want to give her self to me. I just want her to though. I want to be with her. Only her. There is no one else. No one who can do what she does to me. Make me melt with her voice. Calm me with a smile. Just love me for me.
It started with Jess Calling me and telling me she got my letter, the one I had sent her a while back via email. She said it was one of the sweetest things she had ever read. I was all like YAY!!! it's working she is coming back to me. And then Sh said she would be over in a bit. And next thing I know she is over at my house and I tell her how much I missed her and I go to touch her and my hand goes through her. I woke up and was like FUCK!!!! THAT IS BULLSHIT> DON:T DO THAT TO ME. I can't hand;e it. and when went back to sleep, it continued, but it was different, she felt different, she said she was moving to Lake Cowichan, for good. and I was like oh, well, why? and that was it. I was so angry and dissapointed and screwed up that I couldnt sleep anymore. I didnt want to know or want to hear what she had t say.
I wanted her to stay with me. to move in with me. and to BE with me.
She really is one of the most amazing people I've ever met. I didnt think her will was as strog as it is, but appearently she really does not want to give her self to me. I just want her to though. I want to be with her. Only her. There is no one else. No one who can do what she does to me. Make me melt with her voice. Calm me with a smile. Just love me for me.