refreshed.
what do i know about anything? not much, i'm afraid. and wouldn't it be nice if i could go backwards into the future, retrace my paths over rocky roads and green glens, and understand why i have arrived at the moment which i do? yet, that has a distinctly unsatisfying flavor, because for me, the excitement lies in the unknown. but we are all so afraid of the unknown sometimes too, aren't we? but after breaking that fear down, really, i see i am just afraid of myself.
so why? i don't know why. but i believe in karma, and for now, that is enough. i know it won't be always this way, but i am going to put my trust into something i don't know and can't touch because up until now, i've always been too careful. i see what i have become over these last two years, and i dislike it immensely. i know i am not truly this shell i wear. so, i just have to undergo some kind of internal metamorphosis, yeah?
yeah. it's hard. but if i can keep my focus on what is most important to me, i can't worry about how someone else sees the same thing.
breathe anna, just breathe.
so why? i don't know why. but i believe in karma, and for now, that is enough. i know it won't be always this way, but i am going to put my trust into something i don't know and can't touch because up until now, i've always been too careful. i see what i have become over these last two years, and i dislike it immensely. i know i am not truly this shell i wear. so, i just have to undergo some kind of internal metamorphosis, yeah?
yeah. it's hard. but if i can keep my focus on what is most important to me, i can't worry about how someone else sees the same thing.
breathe anna, just breathe.