Dilema 'n such
So, finally done with finals! That's always a plus. I think i did pretty well on my last one, but i'm not too sure on the others. There isn't much i can do other than wait for my grades to come out on thursday, so until then i'm not going to think about them.
There are actually a ton of things on my mind right now. I'm not sure why my mind is racing the way it is...perhaps it has something to do with me listening to Josh Groban or something....lol
First thing refers to this summer. Andrew is going to be staying up here in bellingham with some friends. That leaves me going home without him. I remember last summer...i remember it all too well. I know it will be different, but i dont know if i could handle my parents alone without Andrew with me. It's hard not seeing him for so long too, and i know he'll come home for weekends and stuffs, but it'll still be different. I've been planning stuff that i want to do this summer with some friends, like Climbing, Anime, martial arts, and other such frollies. I just hope it happens, rather than just being talk.
Something else i'm thinking about right now is the living situation once fall quarter comes around. Andrew and I want to live together, but I'm not so sure if i want to be on campus. I hate the dining hall with a firey passion. The food is soo bad. The option came up to live in the same complex or near Matt and Emily, and that sounds like a lot of fun to me...however i wont have a roommate. I think i would have a hard time living alone in a one bedroom. My friend Dustin has asked me to move in with him and his friend into a three bedroom, and as much as i love dustin his life style is a little different than mine. I love hangin out with him, but i dont think i could just sit inside all day playing video games and watching movies. And, if i had roommates who were like that, i'd rarely get the apartment to myself at times, and it's no shock to anyone that i appreciate solitude every now and then.
I realize that none of this is an imediate thing worth worrying about, but it's on my mind anyway. What i need is just some distraction and i'll be fine.
Of course, I can't distract myself when i have more to write :)
BT is so socially disconnected for me it makes me want to cry!!!! I sit in this room, with all of my friends either in fairhaven or north campus...its so easy to dismiss my dorm. Half the time people forget about it when they think about dorms. Does that mean they forget about the people in it too? I wouldnt think so...but it's kinda lonely. It gets to ya sometimes.
Enough of that! I get to go home today and that could very well be a good thing. Maybe... It depends on how much of a prick my dad chooses to be. I think because i'll be working in seattle and be at my moms half the time it wont be that bad. I'll definitly have to deal with the typical guilt trip that comes with staying at one house or the other, and other such frollies. Meh, i'll manage.
Alas, it is time to finish packing and head out of here soon. Hope all of you have a good break(if you get a break this week). See ya!
There are actually a ton of things on my mind right now. I'm not sure why my mind is racing the way it is...perhaps it has something to do with me listening to Josh Groban or something....lol
First thing refers to this summer. Andrew is going to be staying up here in bellingham with some friends. That leaves me going home without him. I remember last summer...i remember it all too well. I know it will be different, but i dont know if i could handle my parents alone without Andrew with me. It's hard not seeing him for so long too, and i know he'll come home for weekends and stuffs, but it'll still be different. I've been planning stuff that i want to do this summer with some friends, like Climbing, Anime, martial arts, and other such frollies. I just hope it happens, rather than just being talk.
Something else i'm thinking about right now is the living situation once fall quarter comes around. Andrew and I want to live together, but I'm not so sure if i want to be on campus. I hate the dining hall with a firey passion. The food is soo bad. The option came up to live in the same complex or near Matt and Emily, and that sounds like a lot of fun to me...however i wont have a roommate. I think i would have a hard time living alone in a one bedroom. My friend Dustin has asked me to move in with him and his friend into a three bedroom, and as much as i love dustin his life style is a little different than mine. I love hangin out with him, but i dont think i could just sit inside all day playing video games and watching movies. And, if i had roommates who were like that, i'd rarely get the apartment to myself at times, and it's no shock to anyone that i appreciate solitude every now and then.
I realize that none of this is an imediate thing worth worrying about, but it's on my mind anyway. What i need is just some distraction and i'll be fine.
Of course, I can't distract myself when i have more to write :)
BT is so socially disconnected for me it makes me want to cry!!!! I sit in this room, with all of my friends either in fairhaven or north campus...its so easy to dismiss my dorm. Half the time people forget about it when they think about dorms. Does that mean they forget about the people in it too? I wouldnt think so...but it's kinda lonely. It gets to ya sometimes.
Enough of that! I get to go home today and that could very well be a good thing. Maybe... It depends on how much of a prick my dad chooses to be. I think because i'll be working in seattle and be at my moms half the time it wont be that bad. I'll definitly have to deal with the typical guilt trip that comes with staying at one house or the other, and other such frollies. Meh, i'll manage.
Alas, it is time to finish packing and head out of here soon. Hope all of you have a good break(if you get a break this week). See ya!