Money Money Money

[firesika]

Moses was meant to help me with my garden the other day. He came a couple of hours after I was expecting him and told me that he and his daughter, Dinah, had a meeting with Derek in the morning. Dinah was one of the students Derek is supporting, but she’s never done very well. She failed again and so Derek is not going to pay her school feels

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[firesika]

I've been trying to figure out how to reply to this, because well, what you're talking about is true, but also isn't exactly what I was trying to get at, for the reasons you listed.

And then I was thinking, yeah, but some of my resistance to addressing what you're talking about is probably because of the way some of does ring true to me, and not in a way that's necessarily comfortable.

But, the physical objects/stuff you're talking about is not the stuff that I view as important--I only care about having a computer because my job would be a pain in the ass without one and because I'm an internet addict ;). The objects I have a hard time letting go of are the ones that have a personal story, that make me think of someone whenever I see or use them. Which is its own problem, but I think not exactly what you're getting at.

I tend not to give money to friends where the friendship isn't strong enough that they can (in my eyes) waste the money and I won't care. Because I realize that when you give something away it's not yours anymore and that I don't know what the needs are of the people I give money to. And I just think if I'm not going to trust their decisions about what's best for them, then the relationship isn't strong enough.

But that's like a two second addendum to the main decision for me, which is, like you said, "do I have the money?" Although, at times the "do I have the money" question takes some more soul searching. If I'd have to cancel my flickr account and netflix and my bust magazine subscription (this is obviously theoretical, still at home talk) in order to have the money, do I have the money? If I have money sitting in the bank, but I have plans for it in 6 months, or it's the money I saved for a long time so I'd have a three month cushion when I lose my job, or for that trip to Europe, do I have the money?