{fic} Crazy Love Chapter 10
Again my brain ran off away from me while I was typing this one out, so it's a little bit longer then it was originally. The first part is for all of you KoKame shippers out there, the second part however, is not.
Title: Crazy Love
Author: fireside_story
Chapter: 10/?
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 3, 696
Genre: Angst, Romance
Disclaimer: I do not have any connections to KAT-TUN or any of the members past or present. I write this story for my own pleasure and make no profit from it.
Pairings: KameDa, KoKame, JunDa, Jinda (-ish), DenDen, mentions of past Akame. Basically it's a giant KAT-TUN orgy!! Well not quite.......
Summary: Ueda has been secretly in love with Kame for years but has been sleeping with Junno to try and forget about the younger man. Kame is still trying to mend his broken heart from when Jin left and is content with his relationship with Koki, that is until he starts working on a song with a certain piano man. As their relationship blossoms will Koki and Junno graciously step aside? And how will their new love handle the return of Jin into their lives.
Warnings: language, sexual themes
Beta: When was the last time I posted an edited chapter....?
Chapter 10
A few hours later, Kame found himself outside of Koki's door having an internal battle. He didn't want to knock on the door. The moment he did it started the whole break up process, the process he was dreading. He knew he had to if he wanted to be with Ueda, and he did want the be with Ueda he reminded himself, but he still felt awful about hurting Koki. Koki had been nothing but perfect for him over the last two and a half years and now Kame was going to break hi heart.
But what about your heart? Don't you deserve someone you might be able to fall in love with? he reasoned with himself. He just wouldn't tell Koki everything, only that he deserved to be with someone who love him since Kame couldn't. Yes he knew it was cruel but it was a little nicer then 'I'm leaving you for another man.'
Feeling a little better, he knew what he was going to say at least, Kame knocked on the door. He could hear Koki's various animals moving in the apartment before Koki answered the door with a smile. No words were spoken as Koki stepped aside allowing Kame to enter. Once inside Kame was able to step out of his shoes just as Koki wrapped his arms around his lover's waist, showering Kame's neck with light nips and kisses.
"Koki stop," Kame said pushing the other man away. "We need to talk."
Koki tightened his grip around the younger man's waist "we can talk after", he purred catching Kame's earlobe between his teeth.
"No, I need to talk to you -" Kame made the mistake of turning to face Koki, who promptly interrupted him with a passionate kiss. Kame clung to Koki's shoulders as he felt the other man begin to walk him backwards towards the couch. Letting out a low moan, Kame buried one of his hands in Koki's hair, as strong hands touched him in all the right places. Koki had spent so much time learning everything he could about Kame's body, now he could pleasure him better then any of his previous lovers had been able to.
You need to stop this, Kame thought as Koki pulled his shirt over his head. Tatsuya is waiting for you. Kame had to tighten his grip on Koki as he felt the other man pick him up, fastening Kame's legs around his waist, before lying him onto the couch.
"We need to talk", Kame panted as he helped Koki out of his shirt.
"We will", Koki stated kissing Kame behind his ear, hands roaming down his body. "After."
"It's serious," Kame squirmed feeling Koki's lips trail down his chest, tongue periodically lapping along his skin.
"And you'll have my undivided attention, but right now all I can think about is watching you get off." Koki said before taking Kame's left nipple into his mouth. Kame arched his back with a contented sigh as he felt Koki's teeth worry the hardened peak, his tongue soothing it after.
"Koki," Kame moaned, bringing the other man back up to his lips. Kame's hands roamed over Koki's back, loving the feeling of the many muscles moving under the satin like skin. Hearing the jingle of his belt, Kame pulled his lips away from his lover. He needed to stop this now, before it went any further and considering Koki was currently undoing his pants there wasn't a lot further they could go before they were having sex.
"We need to stop, I need to talk to -" Kame ended in a cry as Koki took hold of his length, jerking him just the way he liked it best. He took time out to quickly remove Kame's pants and boxers, before placing his hand at the base of Kame's length engulfing the tip with his mouth. Kame clawed at the couch cushions, feeling Koki's tongue swirl around the crown of his cock before slowly taking in all that he could. He forced open his eyes, looking around for anything that would trigger his brain into remembering why this was such bad timing for this, but all he could focus on was the feeling of Koki's hot wet mouth on him. He made the mistake of looking down only to find Koki watching him intensely. As their eyes met Kame become more turned on then he could handle, Koki's eyes shining with lust and his cock go in and out of his lover's mouth. Kame didn't care who it was that was doing this to him, he just needed release and he needed it soon. Movement out of the corner of his eye caught his attention, turning towards Koki's hand as it located a tube of lube from within one of the hidden drawers of the coffee table next to them. Reaching out his hands, Kame took the tube from the other man, frantically coating some of his fingers with the fluid then thrusting them inside his own entrance to stretch himself.
Closing his eyes again, Kame revelled in the feelings of Koki's mouth and his own fingers riding the sensations coursing through him. Some corner of his mind heard the second jingle of a belt buckle as Koki quickly ridded himself of his remaining clothing, but Kame was too close to his end to register any much else. Feeling Koki's hand return to his aching member, Kame cried out as he hit his breaking point, emptying himself into Koki's mouth.
Koki crawled back up Kame's body, a cocky smile in place as he looked at his lover's flushed face, "you gonna do me now?"
Kame spoke no words, just reached up and pulled the other man's face to his, crashing their mouths together as he roughly coated the other man's full length with the lube. Passionate and lustful moans escaped Kame's throat feeling Koki's tongue thrust into his mouth, mimicking everything Koki soon hoped to be doing with the lower half of his body.
"Kazuya, coat me don't jerk me," Koki coached with a low moan, pulling his lover's skilful hand away from his cock. If he had let Kame on him much longer he was going to come everywhere. Positioning himself, Koki thrust into Kame in one fluid motion watching his lover's face filled with pleasure and contentment at finally being filled. Koki loved to watch Kame as he made love to him, he was so beautiful and carefree with his emotions it was the biggest turn on Koki could ever experience. Koki looked down watching the other man as he thrashed and moaned with each thrust of Koki's hips. A smile graced Koki's lips at he noticed Kame quickly become frustrated with the love making. Koki was purposely not going as deep or hard as he knew Kame was craving, trying to make the younger man desperate. A desperate Kame was a fun Kame in Koki's mind, since he then did things he wouldn't normally do. Plus it was always enjoyable for Koki to watch Kame quell his desperation.
"Koki, fuck me" Kame pleaded wrapping his legs around the other man's waist, trying to draw him in deeper.
"I am," he stated thrusting once as deep as Kame wanted just to tease him. He wanted Kame to know how good the sex could be, but only if Kame was willing to take it there.
"Yes!" Kame screamed panting when it didn't happen again. "Oh God, do it again!" he begged, hands gripping tightly in his lover's hips.
"Do what again? This?" Koki teased thrusting harder into the younger man's body making him shout again. "Isn't that what I'm doing?"
"No!" Kame screamed with frustration. "Oh fuck this," Kame muttered before forcing Koki onto his back with him straddling the other man's waist.
Just the way I wanted him, Koki thought as he watched Kame begin to ride him frantically. He learned early, if he made Kame desperate enough he'd take his own pleasure into his hands which was always enjoyable to watch. Koki laid back on the couch, looking up as his lover rode up intensely, hands on Koki's shoulders for support and leverage, his short fingernails biting into his skin. Koki gripped Kame's hips tight enough to bruise him, but that just fuelled Kame more as he picked up speed Koki didn't know his lover had in him. Bending his knees Koki raised his legs, knowing that Kame was going to need to rest once he was done and wanted to brace him if he decided to fall backwards. Not that Kame was going to be done any time soon, since the last time he got this desperate he rode Koki through four orgasms before he had enough.
Koki watched the different emotions flicker over Kame's face, his eyes tightly closed, sweat starting to trickle down his face and neck, as he concentrated solely on achieving his pleasure. Arching his back, eyes flying open Kame came all over Koki's chest. body ceasing momentarily as the orgasm ran through him in waves. But that didn't stop him, since he started riding Koki again, harder this time, once the orgasm was finished with him. Koki moved his hands to Kame's thighs, feeling the muscles as his lover pushed them to their limit. Kame hung his head panting with effort to keep going, he was starting to slow down loosing his energy but still craving his third release. Koki sat up and licked one of the trails of sweat off his chest, Kame crying out with the contact before catching the other man's lips with his own. Wrapping his arms around the younger man's back, Koki brought the other man down with him as he laid back down on the couch. Kame moaned into Koki's mouth as his hips began thrusting up with each one of Kame's down, rocking passionately together in their own person rhythm. Kame buried his hands in Koki's hair again as another orgasm ripped through him crying out in his lover's mouth as he bite the other man's lower lip. Koki groaned as his own climax coursed through him in waves. He tightened his hold on the man in his arms but in a loving embrace instead of passionate need, as Kame slumped forward, head resting on Koki's shoulder. Tasting a faint coppery flavour in his mouth, Koki realised Kame had drawn blood when he bite him. Koki smiled then began to place light kisses on every part of his lover he could reach without moving. He wasn't really disappointed with how long the sex had lasted since he knew they'd be doing that again that night. Kame was never happy with just the one time.
Kame laid with his head on Koki's shoulder as his world began to from around him again. Once he was able to form a thought, there was only one thing that came to his mind.
Tatsuya
"Oh God," he muttered and began to move off of the other man. "We shouldn't have done that."
"Why not? We both wanted to." Koki stated as he lounged on the couch watching the other man dress again.
"I came over here to talk to you, not to have sex." Kame was mad at himself, but it came out in his words directed towards the other person. "I'm sorry, I'm just mad at myself for getting carried away when I came to talk." he said looking at the other man that was still lying on the couch.
"Okay then, talk." Koki sat up crossing his arms over his chest. He wasn't too pleased with the way Kame was acting, but at least he'd had the decency to apologise for snapping when Koki didn't deserve it.
Kame looked away from the other man, "I can't say this while you're naked."
Koki quirked an eyebrow in the other man's direction, but decided to go along with this anyway. Once he was dressed again Koki settled down at the other end of the couch from Kame. "You wanted to talk."
Kame nodded, taking a deep breath as he tried to sort out how to start. "These past two and a half years have been exactly what I needed to get over what happened to me. You have been so good to me, there for me when I needed it and you helped me move past my darkest fears when no one else could. You have no idea how grateful I am for everything you've done for me." And how horrible I feel for what I'm about to do to you.
Koki sat staring at Kame, not liking the sound how this was going. It was sounding very much like a break up speech and they way Kame was refusing to look at anything but his hands just made the fear in the pit of his stomach grow with every word from the other man.
"That being said I need to apologise to you since I haven't been fair to you. This whole time I've taken everything from you and given nothing back."
Koki grabbed Kame's hands, finally drawing Kame's attention to his face, " yes you have. You've given me the chance to be with you, that's all I want."
Kame looked back down at their joined hands, "but you deserve so much more. You deserve someone who gets how special and amazing you are."
"And you do." Koki interrupted. If he could just stop Kame from saying the words the break up wouldn't happen. He just had to talk Kame out of it.
Kame shook his head, closing his eyes as he held back the tears that threatened to fall. He had never hurt himself to much trying to break up with someone. He didn't want to say the next part, but he knew he had to. He knew Koki had to know the truth, at least part of it. "You deserve someone who can love you, and that's something I can't do." Kame looked at the other man again, only to find tears silently rolling down his face. This was too much, he wanted to stop but knew that he couldn't. He had to go through with this.
"I've tried Koki, I've tried so hard to love you but I just can't. I want you to go out and find someone who can."
"But I don't want anyone else. I don't care if you don't love me, I just want to be with you!" Koki tightened his grip on Kame's hands. This wasn't happening, this was all a bad dream. Any moment now he'd wake up and Kame would be asleep beside him since Kame wasn't leaving him.
Kame felt his voice catch in his throat, but still he continued knowing if he stopped now he'd never finish what he had started. "You will care, one day then you'll be unhappy. I can't be selfish anymore. I can't be with you knowing I'm just going to hurt you in the end."
"So that's it. You're breaking up with me to save me from pain?! Dammit Kazuya!" Koki yelled knocking over a stack of magazines that was lying on the coffee table before standing up to pace around the room. Kame jumped back in his seat, this was the type of reaction he had feared when he came over that night.
"Two and a half years we've been together Kazuya! Then you come over all of a sudden to screw me then break up with me?!
Kame watched the other man, tears finally falling down his cheeks, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean for that to happen when I came here tonight. I just can't keep doing this to you. You deserve -"
"Oh don't tell me what I deserve!" Koki interrupted, pain making him sound more angry. "What I deserve is to be with the person I love but apparently that's not happening!"
"Koki please don't do this. Don't make this harder then it already is!" Kame desperately pleaded. He had known this was going to be difficult, but he hadn't been prepared for it to hurt as much as it was.
"Did you hear me?! I love you Kazuya! I love you so much it hurts when I'm not around you." Koki walked back over to the man on the couch and knelt down in front of him, taking his hands in his again. "All I want is to make you happy since that makes me happy. Doesn't that sound for something?"
Kame could see that being nice wasn't going to work. The only way to make an impact was to be honest, even a little bit cruel. Sniffling Kame pulled his hands out from under Koki's, "no it doesn't. It doesn't change the fact that I don't love you and probably never will."
"Kazuya, please don't do this," Koki pleaded, all the pain he was feeling making his dark eyes shine.
"It's too late Koki, it's already done." Kame stood on uneasy legs. He just had to make it to the door first, then he'd take it from there.
"So just like that two and a half years is over and we're done?" Koki asked quietly as he watched Kame put his shoes back on. "We were happy once, we can be again. Don't do this."
Kame looked at Koki, the man who had been his lover and protector for two and a half years. The man who had saved him from himself and his darkest hours, and who he was now leaving so he could protect someone else. He had saved a little piece of the truth, hoping he wouldn't have to say it, but it looked like he had no choice. "I wasn't happy Koki, just existing."
Turning the handle Kame opened the door, taking one last look at the lover he was leaving behind, the life he was walking away from. "Good-bye Koki and I'm sorry. I hope one day you can forgive me for everything."
Ueda paced his apartment. He hated to admit it, but he was nervous. He hated not knowing what was happening at Koki's apartment, mainly since it seemed to be taking Kame an incredibly long time.
Maybe he's changed his mind, his fear piped up. Maybe he isn't leaving him after all and you really will be alone. Ueda shook his head as if to dislodge the thought. Kame said he was leaving Koki tonight, he just had to be patient. Break ups can take time, and they have to be done carefully....
Or maybe they're busy having wild passionate monkey sex. Ueda prayed Kame wouldn't be much longer, he was really getting tired of only having his own mind for company. Hearing a knock on his door Ueda paused for a moment before heading towards it. This was it, the moment of truth. He was about to find out if Kame had left Koki, or was leaving him.
Finally opening the door, Ueda found Kame on the other side, telltale sings he had been crying still evident on his face. "Oh Baby," Ueda muttered quietly before taking Kame by the hand and pulling him into a hug.
"It was awful Tat-chan. He was so mad and hurt. He didn't do anything wrong and I hurt him so much. He's going to hate me." Kame almost whimpered as he rested his cheek on the top of Ueda's head.
"But now we can be together. Did you tell him about us?" Ueda asked, pulling back just far enough so he could look up at the other man.
"No, that seemed too cruel. I told him it was because I didn't love him which was bad enough." Kame looked at the beautiful man standing in his arms. Cupping his face, Kame realised Ueda was right, now they could be together with nothing to stop them. Swiftly pulling Ueda against him, Kame kissed the other man fiercely.
Ueda clung to Kame's shoulder as the two of them kissed vigorously. High pitches whimpers leaked from him throat as he felt himself pinned against the wall before his shirt was ripped over his head. Letting out a startled gasp, Ueda felt himself being lifted up legs being wrapped around Kame's waist while the over man began moving them towards the bedrooms.
"Yours is the first on the left, right?" Kame frantically asked, not waiting for an answer before turning into the room, kicking the door shut with his foot. Kame kissed Ueda again, making his head spin with the speed of it all as he laid them both on the bed. Pinning the older man to the mattress with his hips, Kame sat up enough to pull his shirt over his head. Ueda let out a low moan feeling those incredible lips on his neck again as Kame kissed his neck and under his chin. Hands travelled down Ueda's naked torso until they met the fabric of his jeans
"We should stop this," Ueda muttered while Kame made quick work of his belt and jean fastenings. It was too soon for this, Kame was hurting and not thinking straight. Just as long as Ueda stopped them before he was totally naked, otherwise he wouldn't be able to say no.
"Why? I'm no longer with Koki, so please just let me finally have you. Let me forget about everything except you for just one night." Kame pleaded pulling Ueda's jeans and boxers off his legs. So much for stopping him before he was totally naked.
Ueda pushed Kame away gently and just enough so they could look at each other, taking hold of the other man's hands to still them. "You just left him and you're hurting too. You need to take time to grieve the end of your relationship. I promise you can have me all you want after that."
Kame looked down at Ueda, before he was able to stop them the tears started. They flowed as Ueda tucked him into bed and held him in his arms. No matter how hard Kame tried to make them stop, they couldn't until he fell asleep.
Title: Crazy Love
Author: fireside_story
Chapter: 10/?
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 3, 696
Genre: Angst, Romance
Disclaimer: I do not have any connections to KAT-TUN or any of the members past or present. I write this story for my own pleasure and make no profit from it.
Pairings: KameDa, KoKame, JunDa, Jinda (-ish), DenDen, mentions of past Akame. Basically it's a giant KAT-TUN orgy!! Well not quite.......
Summary: Ueda has been secretly in love with Kame for years but has been sleeping with Junno to try and forget about the younger man. Kame is still trying to mend his broken heart from when Jin left and is content with his relationship with Koki, that is until he starts working on a song with a certain piano man. As their relationship blossoms will Koki and Junno graciously step aside? And how will their new love handle the return of Jin into their lives.
Warnings: language, sexual themes
Beta: When was the last time I posted an edited chapter....?
Chapter 10
A few hours later, Kame found himself outside of Koki's door having an internal battle. He didn't want to knock on the door. The moment he did it started the whole break up process, the process he was dreading. He knew he had to if he wanted to be with Ueda, and he did want the be with Ueda he reminded himself, but he still felt awful about hurting Koki. Koki had been nothing but perfect for him over the last two and a half years and now Kame was going to break hi heart.
But what about your heart? Don't you deserve someone you might be able to fall in love with? he reasoned with himself. He just wouldn't tell Koki everything, only that he deserved to be with someone who love him since Kame couldn't. Yes he knew it was cruel but it was a little nicer then 'I'm leaving you for another man.'
Feeling a little better, he knew what he was going to say at least, Kame knocked on the door. He could hear Koki's various animals moving in the apartment before Koki answered the door with a smile. No words were spoken as Koki stepped aside allowing Kame to enter. Once inside Kame was able to step out of his shoes just as Koki wrapped his arms around his lover's waist, showering Kame's neck with light nips and kisses.
"Koki stop," Kame said pushing the other man away. "We need to talk."
Koki tightened his grip around the younger man's waist "we can talk after", he purred catching Kame's earlobe between his teeth.
"No, I need to talk to you -" Kame made the mistake of turning to face Koki, who promptly interrupted him with a passionate kiss. Kame clung to Koki's shoulders as he felt the other man begin to walk him backwards towards the couch. Letting out a low moan, Kame buried one of his hands in Koki's hair, as strong hands touched him in all the right places. Koki had spent so much time learning everything he could about Kame's body, now he could pleasure him better then any of his previous lovers had been able to.
You need to stop this, Kame thought as Koki pulled his shirt over his head. Tatsuya is waiting for you. Kame had to tighten his grip on Koki as he felt the other man pick him up, fastening Kame's legs around his waist, before lying him onto the couch.
"We need to talk", Kame panted as he helped Koki out of his shirt.
"We will", Koki stated kissing Kame behind his ear, hands roaming down his body. "After."
"It's serious," Kame squirmed feeling Koki's lips trail down his chest, tongue periodically lapping along his skin.
"And you'll have my undivided attention, but right now all I can think about is watching you get off." Koki said before taking Kame's left nipple into his mouth. Kame arched his back with a contented sigh as he felt Koki's teeth worry the hardened peak, his tongue soothing it after.
"Koki," Kame moaned, bringing the other man back up to his lips. Kame's hands roamed over Koki's back, loving the feeling of the many muscles moving under the satin like skin. Hearing the jingle of his belt, Kame pulled his lips away from his lover. He needed to stop this now, before it went any further and considering Koki was currently undoing his pants there wasn't a lot further they could go before they were having sex.
"We need to stop, I need to talk to -" Kame ended in a cry as Koki took hold of his length, jerking him just the way he liked it best. He took time out to quickly remove Kame's pants and boxers, before placing his hand at the base of Kame's length engulfing the tip with his mouth. Kame clawed at the couch cushions, feeling Koki's tongue swirl around the crown of his cock before slowly taking in all that he could. He forced open his eyes, looking around for anything that would trigger his brain into remembering why this was such bad timing for this, but all he could focus on was the feeling of Koki's hot wet mouth on him. He made the mistake of looking down only to find Koki watching him intensely. As their eyes met Kame become more turned on then he could handle, Koki's eyes shining with lust and his cock go in and out of his lover's mouth. Kame didn't care who it was that was doing this to him, he just needed release and he needed it soon. Movement out of the corner of his eye caught his attention, turning towards Koki's hand as it located a tube of lube from within one of the hidden drawers of the coffee table next to them. Reaching out his hands, Kame took the tube from the other man, frantically coating some of his fingers with the fluid then thrusting them inside his own entrance to stretch himself.
Closing his eyes again, Kame revelled in the feelings of Koki's mouth and his own fingers riding the sensations coursing through him. Some corner of his mind heard the second jingle of a belt buckle as Koki quickly ridded himself of his remaining clothing, but Kame was too close to his end to register any much else. Feeling Koki's hand return to his aching member, Kame cried out as he hit his breaking point, emptying himself into Koki's mouth.
Koki crawled back up Kame's body, a cocky smile in place as he looked at his lover's flushed face, "you gonna do me now?"
Kame spoke no words, just reached up and pulled the other man's face to his, crashing their mouths together as he roughly coated the other man's full length with the lube. Passionate and lustful moans escaped Kame's throat feeling Koki's tongue thrust into his mouth, mimicking everything Koki soon hoped to be doing with the lower half of his body.
"Kazuya, coat me don't jerk me," Koki coached with a low moan, pulling his lover's skilful hand away from his cock. If he had let Kame on him much longer he was going to come everywhere. Positioning himself, Koki thrust into Kame in one fluid motion watching his lover's face filled with pleasure and contentment at finally being filled. Koki loved to watch Kame as he made love to him, he was so beautiful and carefree with his emotions it was the biggest turn on Koki could ever experience. Koki looked down watching the other man as he thrashed and moaned with each thrust of Koki's hips. A smile graced Koki's lips at he noticed Kame quickly become frustrated with the love making. Koki was purposely not going as deep or hard as he knew Kame was craving, trying to make the younger man desperate. A desperate Kame was a fun Kame in Koki's mind, since he then did things he wouldn't normally do. Plus it was always enjoyable for Koki to watch Kame quell his desperation.
"Koki, fuck me" Kame pleaded wrapping his legs around the other man's waist, trying to draw him in deeper.
"I am," he stated thrusting once as deep as Kame wanted just to tease him. He wanted Kame to know how good the sex could be, but only if Kame was willing to take it there.
"Yes!" Kame screamed panting when it didn't happen again. "Oh God, do it again!" he begged, hands gripping tightly in his lover's hips.
"Do what again? This?" Koki teased thrusting harder into the younger man's body making him shout again. "Isn't that what I'm doing?"
"No!" Kame screamed with frustration. "Oh fuck this," Kame muttered before forcing Koki onto his back with him straddling the other man's waist.
Just the way I wanted him, Koki thought as he watched Kame begin to ride him frantically. He learned early, if he made Kame desperate enough he'd take his own pleasure into his hands which was always enjoyable to watch. Koki laid back on the couch, looking up as his lover rode up intensely, hands on Koki's shoulders for support and leverage, his short fingernails biting into his skin. Koki gripped Kame's hips tight enough to bruise him, but that just fuelled Kame more as he picked up speed Koki didn't know his lover had in him. Bending his knees Koki raised his legs, knowing that Kame was going to need to rest once he was done and wanted to brace him if he decided to fall backwards. Not that Kame was going to be done any time soon, since the last time he got this desperate he rode Koki through four orgasms before he had enough.
Koki watched the different emotions flicker over Kame's face, his eyes tightly closed, sweat starting to trickle down his face and neck, as he concentrated solely on achieving his pleasure. Arching his back, eyes flying open Kame came all over Koki's chest. body ceasing momentarily as the orgasm ran through him in waves. But that didn't stop him, since he started riding Koki again, harder this time, once the orgasm was finished with him. Koki moved his hands to Kame's thighs, feeling the muscles as his lover pushed them to their limit. Kame hung his head panting with effort to keep going, he was starting to slow down loosing his energy but still craving his third release. Koki sat up and licked one of the trails of sweat off his chest, Kame crying out with the contact before catching the other man's lips with his own. Wrapping his arms around the younger man's back, Koki brought the other man down with him as he laid back down on the couch. Kame moaned into Koki's mouth as his hips began thrusting up with each one of Kame's down, rocking passionately together in their own person rhythm. Kame buried his hands in Koki's hair again as another orgasm ripped through him crying out in his lover's mouth as he bite the other man's lower lip. Koki groaned as his own climax coursed through him in waves. He tightened his hold on the man in his arms but in a loving embrace instead of passionate need, as Kame slumped forward, head resting on Koki's shoulder. Tasting a faint coppery flavour in his mouth, Koki realised Kame had drawn blood when he bite him. Koki smiled then began to place light kisses on every part of his lover he could reach without moving. He wasn't really disappointed with how long the sex had lasted since he knew they'd be doing that again that night. Kame was never happy with just the one time.
Kame laid with his head on Koki's shoulder as his world began to from around him again. Once he was able to form a thought, there was only one thing that came to his mind.
Tatsuya
"Oh God," he muttered and began to move off of the other man. "We shouldn't have done that."
"Why not? We both wanted to." Koki stated as he lounged on the couch watching the other man dress again.
"I came over here to talk to you, not to have sex." Kame was mad at himself, but it came out in his words directed towards the other person. "I'm sorry, I'm just mad at myself for getting carried away when I came to talk." he said looking at the other man that was still lying on the couch.
"Okay then, talk." Koki sat up crossing his arms over his chest. He wasn't too pleased with the way Kame was acting, but at least he'd had the decency to apologise for snapping when Koki didn't deserve it.
Kame looked away from the other man, "I can't say this while you're naked."
Koki quirked an eyebrow in the other man's direction, but decided to go along with this anyway. Once he was dressed again Koki settled down at the other end of the couch from Kame. "You wanted to talk."
Kame nodded, taking a deep breath as he tried to sort out how to start. "These past two and a half years have been exactly what I needed to get over what happened to me. You have been so good to me, there for me when I needed it and you helped me move past my darkest fears when no one else could. You have no idea how grateful I am for everything you've done for me." And how horrible I feel for what I'm about to do to you.
Koki sat staring at Kame, not liking the sound how this was going. It was sounding very much like a break up speech and they way Kame was refusing to look at anything but his hands just made the fear in the pit of his stomach grow with every word from the other man.
"That being said I need to apologise to you since I haven't been fair to you. This whole time I've taken everything from you and given nothing back."
Koki grabbed Kame's hands, finally drawing Kame's attention to his face, " yes you have. You've given me the chance to be with you, that's all I want."
Kame looked back down at their joined hands, "but you deserve so much more. You deserve someone who gets how special and amazing you are."
"And you do." Koki interrupted. If he could just stop Kame from saying the words the break up wouldn't happen. He just had to talk Kame out of it.
Kame shook his head, closing his eyes as he held back the tears that threatened to fall. He had never hurt himself to much trying to break up with someone. He didn't want to say the next part, but he knew he had to. He knew Koki had to know the truth, at least part of it. "You deserve someone who can love you, and that's something I can't do." Kame looked at the other man again, only to find tears silently rolling down his face. This was too much, he wanted to stop but knew that he couldn't. He had to go through with this.
"I've tried Koki, I've tried so hard to love you but I just can't. I want you to go out and find someone who can."
"But I don't want anyone else. I don't care if you don't love me, I just want to be with you!" Koki tightened his grip on Kame's hands. This wasn't happening, this was all a bad dream. Any moment now he'd wake up and Kame would be asleep beside him since Kame wasn't leaving him.
Kame felt his voice catch in his throat, but still he continued knowing if he stopped now he'd never finish what he had started. "You will care, one day then you'll be unhappy. I can't be selfish anymore. I can't be with you knowing I'm just going to hurt you in the end."
"So that's it. You're breaking up with me to save me from pain?! Dammit Kazuya!" Koki yelled knocking over a stack of magazines that was lying on the coffee table before standing up to pace around the room. Kame jumped back in his seat, this was the type of reaction he had feared when he came over that night.
"Two and a half years we've been together Kazuya! Then you come over all of a sudden to screw me then break up with me?!
Kame watched the other man, tears finally falling down his cheeks, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean for that to happen when I came here tonight. I just can't keep doing this to you. You deserve -"
"Oh don't tell me what I deserve!" Koki interrupted, pain making him sound more angry. "What I deserve is to be with the person I love but apparently that's not happening!"
"Koki please don't do this. Don't make this harder then it already is!" Kame desperately pleaded. He had known this was going to be difficult, but he hadn't been prepared for it to hurt as much as it was.
"Did you hear me?! I love you Kazuya! I love you so much it hurts when I'm not around you." Koki walked back over to the man on the couch and knelt down in front of him, taking his hands in his again. "All I want is to make you happy since that makes me happy. Doesn't that sound for something?"
Kame could see that being nice wasn't going to work. The only way to make an impact was to be honest, even a little bit cruel. Sniffling Kame pulled his hands out from under Koki's, "no it doesn't. It doesn't change the fact that I don't love you and probably never will."
"Kazuya, please don't do this," Koki pleaded, all the pain he was feeling making his dark eyes shine.
"It's too late Koki, it's already done." Kame stood on uneasy legs. He just had to make it to the door first, then he'd take it from there.
"So just like that two and a half years is over and we're done?" Koki asked quietly as he watched Kame put his shoes back on. "We were happy once, we can be again. Don't do this."
Kame looked at Koki, the man who had been his lover and protector for two and a half years. The man who had saved him from himself and his darkest hours, and who he was now leaving so he could protect someone else. He had saved a little piece of the truth, hoping he wouldn't have to say it, but it looked like he had no choice. "I wasn't happy Koki, just existing."
Turning the handle Kame opened the door, taking one last look at the lover he was leaving behind, the life he was walking away from. "Good-bye Koki and I'm sorry. I hope one day you can forgive me for everything."
Ueda paced his apartment. He hated to admit it, but he was nervous. He hated not knowing what was happening at Koki's apartment, mainly since it seemed to be taking Kame an incredibly long time.
Maybe he's changed his mind, his fear piped up. Maybe he isn't leaving him after all and you really will be alone. Ueda shook his head as if to dislodge the thought. Kame said he was leaving Koki tonight, he just had to be patient. Break ups can take time, and they have to be done carefully....
Or maybe they're busy having wild passionate monkey sex. Ueda prayed Kame wouldn't be much longer, he was really getting tired of only having his own mind for company. Hearing a knock on his door Ueda paused for a moment before heading towards it. This was it, the moment of truth. He was about to find out if Kame had left Koki, or was leaving him.
Finally opening the door, Ueda found Kame on the other side, telltale sings he had been crying still evident on his face. "Oh Baby," Ueda muttered quietly before taking Kame by the hand and pulling him into a hug.
"It was awful Tat-chan. He was so mad and hurt. He didn't do anything wrong and I hurt him so much. He's going to hate me." Kame almost whimpered as he rested his cheek on the top of Ueda's head.
"But now we can be together. Did you tell him about us?" Ueda asked, pulling back just far enough so he could look up at the other man.
"No, that seemed too cruel. I told him it was because I didn't love him which was bad enough." Kame looked at the beautiful man standing in his arms. Cupping his face, Kame realised Ueda was right, now they could be together with nothing to stop them. Swiftly pulling Ueda against him, Kame kissed the other man fiercely.
Ueda clung to Kame's shoulder as the two of them kissed vigorously. High pitches whimpers leaked from him throat as he felt himself pinned against the wall before his shirt was ripped over his head. Letting out a startled gasp, Ueda felt himself being lifted up legs being wrapped around Kame's waist while the over man began moving them towards the bedrooms.
"Yours is the first on the left, right?" Kame frantically asked, not waiting for an answer before turning into the room, kicking the door shut with his foot. Kame kissed Ueda again, making his head spin with the speed of it all as he laid them both on the bed. Pinning the older man to the mattress with his hips, Kame sat up enough to pull his shirt over his head. Ueda let out a low moan feeling those incredible lips on his neck again as Kame kissed his neck and under his chin. Hands travelled down Ueda's naked torso until they met the fabric of his jeans
"We should stop this," Ueda muttered while Kame made quick work of his belt and jean fastenings. It was too soon for this, Kame was hurting and not thinking straight. Just as long as Ueda stopped them before he was totally naked, otherwise he wouldn't be able to say no.
"Why? I'm no longer with Koki, so please just let me finally have you. Let me forget about everything except you for just one night." Kame pleaded pulling Ueda's jeans and boxers off his legs. So much for stopping him before he was totally naked.
Ueda pushed Kame away gently and just enough so they could look at each other, taking hold of the other man's hands to still them. "You just left him and you're hurting too. You need to take time to grieve the end of your relationship. I promise you can have me all you want after that."
Kame looked down at Ueda, before he was able to stop them the tears started. They flowed as Ueda tucked him into bed and held him in his arms. No matter how hard Kame tried to make them stop, they couldn't until he fell asleep.