confuzzled
well i'm very confused about something right now. See once again, i've put my trust in someone. I took a chance at forgiving someone. And now right now I am not sure if that was the correct move. People can change, i believe that. However, they sometimes seem like they have changed, when really they havent. I think this may be one of those times. The thing that confuses me most. Is all of a sudden, this person has taken me off their friend's list and it seems that all posts after a certain point can only be seen if you are their friend. They updated 3 hours ago. I was on their list of friends....until i checked today. that means they took me off today recently and i dont know why. Therefore i must find out. I think this may be the beginning of my trust being proven wrong. I hope it's not. I really do. I wonder what is going on and why and hope I will get answers. Although.....i highly doubt it.
In the meantime. I have sent one message to ask the question. That is all. If she wants to get in touch with me she can. If not i'll see her at work. I'm sick of trying to get in touch with her. I shouldn't be the one who always does. She should sometimes also if she wants to. Although if she doesnt want to, thats a different story. If she doesnt want to get in touch with me then that alone proves my trust was misplaced. I wonder what will happen we shall see.
I'm hanging around. working. Seeing some friends. Watching some movies. playing some games. figuring some shit out. but in the back of my mind. i wonder. and i will continue to wonder. however, contrary to her methods. i wont shut her out. If she wants to see what i'm thinking. Here it is in the open. I would tell her myself if i could get in touch with her but i'm not going searching.
why do i do this to myself??
In the meantime. I have sent one message to ask the question. That is all. If she wants to get in touch with me she can. If not i'll see her at work. I'm sick of trying to get in touch with her. I shouldn't be the one who always does. She should sometimes also if she wants to. Although if she doesnt want to, thats a different story. If she doesnt want to get in touch with me then that alone proves my trust was misplaced. I wonder what will happen we shall see.
I'm hanging around. working. Seeing some friends. Watching some movies. playing some games. figuring some shit out. but in the back of my mind. i wonder. and i will continue to wonder. however, contrary to her methods. i wont shut her out. If she wants to see what i'm thinking. Here it is in the open. I would tell her myself if i could get in touch with her but i'm not going searching.
why do i do this to myself??