Ho Ho Ho has been banned!?!?
Chris and I were talking about Christmas at 5 this morning and he informed me that at the beginning of the year it is now illegal for anyone EVEN SANTA to say ho ho ho because it is degrading to women. Apparently some feminists got together and decided that even though this has been going on forever and it was never about women Santa should no longer say ho ho ho! Um so now Santa says ha ha ha what kind of shit is that?
I have had the worst day and I only got up an hour ago. Chris asked me to stay in Australia until the New Year and I was like um no my mom would flip if I didn't show up for Christmas and he is like call her and I will ask her. I call up my mom and she is like well I was going to talk to you about that I may not be here. My heart skipped a beat and my eyes started to water. She knows how I feel about Christmas. Even though I have a dysfuntional family Christmas is my favorite time of the year. It is not about the presents or anything like that. It is about family and food and bonding and now I won't have that this year. Then she has the nerve to tell me oh you can still spend it with your sister. HELL NO!!!! I WOULDN'T GO OVER THERE AND SPEND ANY HOLIDAY WITH HER BY MYSELF EVEN IF YOU PAID ME! I can't believe this but if she wants to go to Seattle for Christmas and be with Will fine I will just stay here until a week before school starts. I am really upset about this and then she asks me for 500 bucks because my brother was supposed to be helping her out with rent and he hasn't sent her the money. I can't do this anymore. I can't take care of the both of us. It is breaking me. Rudy says I should just be 20 but how do I pull that off when I have to take care of my mom on the other side of the equator while failing at school, working and hanging out. I can't do this anymore. I am ready to just be done with this all and disappear. This is not what this trip was supposed to be about, but I am glad that it was because when I come back I won't be the same person. I am not sure if it will be for the better or for the worst but i won't be the same.
I have had the worst day and I only got up an hour ago. Chris asked me to stay in Australia until the New Year and I was like um no my mom would flip if I didn't show up for Christmas and he is like call her and I will ask her. I call up my mom and she is like well I was going to talk to you about that I may not be here. My heart skipped a beat and my eyes started to water. She knows how I feel about Christmas. Even though I have a dysfuntional family Christmas is my favorite time of the year. It is not about the presents or anything like that. It is about family and food and bonding and now I won't have that this year. Then she has the nerve to tell me oh you can still spend it with your sister. HELL NO!!!! I WOULDN'T GO OVER THERE AND SPEND ANY HOLIDAY WITH HER BY MYSELF EVEN IF YOU PAID ME! I can't believe this but if she wants to go to Seattle for Christmas and be with Will fine I will just stay here until a week before school starts. I am really upset about this and then she asks me for 500 bucks because my brother was supposed to be helping her out with rent and he hasn't sent her the money. I can't do this anymore. I can't take care of the both of us. It is breaking me. Rudy says I should just be 20 but how do I pull that off when I have to take care of my mom on the other side of the equator while failing at school, working and hanging out. I can't do this anymore. I am ready to just be done with this all and disappear. This is not what this trip was supposed to be about, but I am glad that it was because when I come back I won't be the same person. I am not sure if it will be for the better or for the worst but i won't be the same.