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I got to spend the day with my family today. Most importantly I got to spend time with my dad. I haven't done that in quite a while. We never spend time together anymore. I am beginning to think that this break up is quite possibly the best thing that could have happened before I leave. Now I get to spend my last few weeks at home with the people that I care about most. I really regret not spending more time with those people because I passed it up to spend time with someone who obviously didn't care.
I was watching last kiss today and there was a quote that went " Any idiot can say they love someone, It's how you treat those who you say you love that really matters" perhaps not word for word. But that basically sums up my state of mind right now. I mean it everytime I say I love someone. I meant it every time I said it to Sean. But I am really going to try to treat those that I say I love with as much care as humanly possible until I leave. I am really worried that when I do leave everything will change. But it already has so it's not that big of a deal anymore.
The only thing I regret now is that Sean is being a really big dick and he won't talk to me. I think that by the time he is ready I will not want to talk to him. Little by little I am realizing that if he is going to treat me like this, then I am better off without his company. I just wish we could still be friends, because I will always care about him.
I am going to be 18 in exactly a week. Everyone will be gone by then. Looks like I am celebrating alone. That's a little depressing, but whatever. If you are still going to be around on the 26th, let me know!
- Sarah
I was watching last kiss today and there was a quote that went " Any idiot can say they love someone, It's how you treat those who you say you love that really matters" perhaps not word for word. But that basically sums up my state of mind right now. I mean it everytime I say I love someone. I meant it every time I said it to Sean. But I am really going to try to treat those that I say I love with as much care as humanly possible until I leave. I am really worried that when I do leave everything will change. But it already has so it's not that big of a deal anymore.
The only thing I regret now is that Sean is being a really big dick and he won't talk to me. I think that by the time he is ready I will not want to talk to him. Little by little I am realizing that if he is going to treat me like this, then I am better off without his company. I just wish we could still be friends, because I will always care about him.
I am going to be 18 in exactly a week. Everyone will be gone by then. Looks like I am celebrating alone. That's a little depressing, but whatever. If you are still going to be around on the 26th, let me know!
- Sarah