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tonight was very cute. yay for reminiscing about glenhills and good hope. Good hope: the lilac path home that always smells pretty, karen teng, jackie, everyone being so cute and tiny....Glenhills: 6th grade, fucked up crushes, musicals, weird couples, walking home....i miss that. the walk home from glenhills was always so relaxing. i miss the simplistic life...
so, its pretty funny how both kinda gross me out now. actually, everyone ive liked since i came to nicolet kinda gross me out now. well ok, maybe one doesnt really, but hes just neutral now. thats good though. after 2 1/2 years, i have no residual feelings toward any guy at nicolet. that may not sound important, but it really is. cause honestly, lately its just been more important to figure out what i want and need. frankly, those are 2 very different things. ive really always had trouble with guys, mainly cause i keep going for ppl that are just wrong. when it comes to guys, what i need is a nice boy. and yet at the same time, i dont really feel the need for one. focusing on who i am and who im becoming is more important....the rest will eventually fall into place. i think ive matured a lot, especially since israel. my priorities are basically in order.
so, its pretty funny how both kinda gross me out now. actually, everyone ive liked since i came to nicolet kinda gross me out now. well ok, maybe one doesnt really, but hes just neutral now. thats good though. after 2 1/2 years, i have no residual feelings toward any guy at nicolet. that may not sound important, but it really is. cause honestly, lately its just been more important to figure out what i want and need. frankly, those are 2 very different things. ive really always had trouble with guys, mainly cause i keep going for ppl that are just wrong. when it comes to guys, what i need is a nice boy. and yet at the same time, i dont really feel the need for one. focusing on who i am and who im becoming is more important....the rest will eventually fall into place. i think ive matured a lot, especially since israel. my priorities are basically in order.