If Anything Ever Hurt So Much...
Okay, if you know me and know what I'm talking about here, pretending you never read this, okay?
So, I was talking to one of my best friends today, who also happens to be an ex-boyfriend. Now, this is the ex who ended up being bisexual; well now he is gay, completely. I have no problem with this, I support different sexualities and all, but it hurts. I mean, this is someone I dated and "did stuff" with and now comes out as gay. First, of course, there were my thoughts of, "Was there ever anything between us? Did it mean anything?" Since we're such good friends, I asked him, and he said that he always loved me but he always had doubts about his own sexuality. I still don't think my brain is fully processing that but... Something that I don't think I told anyone, is that I still like him. I mean, I knew it would never work because of college and stuff but...It still hurts, because I always hoped. So, yeah, it hurts.
So, I was talking to one of my best friends today, who also happens to be an ex-boyfriend. Now, this is the ex who ended up being bisexual; well now he is gay, completely. I have no problem with this, I support different sexualities and all, but it hurts. I mean, this is someone I dated and "did stuff" with and now comes out as gay. First, of course, there were my thoughts of, "Was there ever anything between us? Did it mean anything?" Since we're such good friends, I asked him, and he said that he always loved me but he always had doubts about his own sexuality. I still don't think my brain is fully processing that but... Something that I don't think I told anyone, is that I still like him. I mean, I knew it would never work because of college and stuff but...It still hurts, because I always hoped. So, yeah, it hurts.