And Now I'm Static
*screams at the top of her lungs while tears stream down*
So, I'm talking to a best friend which happens to be an ex-boyfriend. We haven't talked in a while. And he's got a son now. He brought up old times...you know...when we dated. Good times and stuff we did. And when he brings it up, and I think about it, it does hurt. I mean...I never wanted it to end but it did. Then he dated my friend and they had a kid. So him and I will never be together again unless SHE pushes HIM away. I wouldn't have it any other way. So anyway...we are talking about old times that he brought up stuff about like, "Do I regret any of it?" or "Would I want to relive it?" Ugh! The answer is yes, of course, but I have to verbalize no because I refuse to come between a family. He's a father and he has that responsibility. Those "what if" questions...they're a killer. So now that I'm sad and thinking about good times past and the impossible thoughts of me and someone I still love (as a friend or otherwise)...I'm going to go. I had my spill for the night. And if you know who/what I'm speaking of, please keep it to yourself. Thank you.
So, I'm talking to a best friend which happens to be an ex-boyfriend. We haven't talked in a while. And he's got a son now. He brought up old times...you know...when we dated. Good times and stuff we did. And when he brings it up, and I think about it, it does hurt. I mean...I never wanted it to end but it did. Then he dated my friend and they had a kid. So him and I will never be together again unless SHE pushes HIM away. I wouldn't have it any other way. So anyway...we are talking about old times that he brought up stuff about like, "Do I regret any of it?" or "Would I want to relive it?" Ugh! The answer is yes, of course, but I have to verbalize no because I refuse to come between a family. He's a father and he has that responsibility. Those "what if" questions...they're a killer. So now that I'm sad and thinking about good times past and the impossible thoughts of me and someone I still love (as a friend or otherwise)...I'm going to go. I had my spill for the night. And if you know who/what I'm speaking of, please keep it to yourself. Thank you.