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For the past two months, I have had trouble falling asleep, if I can sleep at all. It's my medication's fault, Geodon.
It wasn't so bad at first. It would take me about an hour to fall asleep every few days. I started taking Benadryl to fall asleep. Soon, I grew a tolerance for it, and it stopped working.
Then, I would not sleep at all. I started taking Ambien, a sleeping pill, to fall asleep. It would knock me out fast. But soon I also grew a tolerance for them, and they stopped working.
I'm also growing very angry.
I talked to my psychiatrist today, and he gave me one solution to both of my problems:
Take one Seroquel pill at night.
Seroquel was the stuff I took when I was shaking and not able to sleep when I was withdrawing from Depakote and Lamictal. Seroquel was the stuff that knocked me out for the next 12 hours. Seroquel is what made me not remember half of Preview at UF. Seroquel is what my aunt is addicted to.
I don't want to become addicted to perscription pills. I don't want to not remember half of what went on during the course of a day. But it seems that I have no choice. I've already tried three different medications for my bipolar, and I don't have many options left. The market for bipolar medication seems to be very narrow.
At least I have about a month to adjust to this new medication. It was a good thing I gave my two weeks notice this week.
I just feel so helpless. Like a prisoner in my own body and mind.
Somebody help me. I'm so frustrated and scared.
It wasn't so bad at first. It would take me about an hour to fall asleep every few days. I started taking Benadryl to fall asleep. Soon, I grew a tolerance for it, and it stopped working.
Then, I would not sleep at all. I started taking Ambien, a sleeping pill, to fall asleep. It would knock me out fast. But soon I also grew a tolerance for them, and they stopped working.
I'm also growing very angry.
I talked to my psychiatrist today, and he gave me one solution to both of my problems:
Take one Seroquel pill at night.
Seroquel was the stuff I took when I was shaking and not able to sleep when I was withdrawing from Depakote and Lamictal. Seroquel was the stuff that knocked me out for the next 12 hours. Seroquel is what made me not remember half of Preview at UF. Seroquel is what my aunt is addicted to.
I don't want to become addicted to perscription pills. I don't want to not remember half of what went on during the course of a day. But it seems that I have no choice. I've already tried three different medications for my bipolar, and I don't have many options left. The market for bipolar medication seems to be very narrow.
At least I have about a month to adjust to this new medication. It was a good thing I gave my two weeks notice this week.
I just feel so helpless. Like a prisoner in my own body and mind.
Somebody help me. I'm so frustrated and scared.