*hugs* I'm sorry if I annoy you. I enjoyed our walk on the beach the other day though... but I know it's hard to be around other couples when you're missing Carl. I had to miss Dave for a long time, last year.
My Pappap had Alzheimer's the last 8 years of his life (he lived to be 88) and it was really hard. We never put him in a nursing home because my grandmother didn't want it. He tried to kill himself once with a gun but couldn't get the safety off. Someone had to be with him constantly, all of the time. We took turns in shifts when my grandmother was at work (my dad, my mom, and I) and it was really hard and tedious. He fell all of the time, he peed everywhere, and he was a smoker too, so he had to be watched constantly. He fell down the stairs a number of times, that was hard. But I'm glad I got to spend time with him. The last time I ever saw him was a month before he died... I went up to take my dog up there (my mom was having a party) and I felt the random urge to go over and hug and kiss him and tell him I love him (Even though most of the time he didn't know who I was) and my dad told me later that my Pap cried because he was really touched that I did that (my sister was always really cold to him, and we were never very affectionate in general). It makes me cry every time I think about it. *hugs* I'm sorry, I'm sure you didn't want to hear all of that... but I want you to know that if you ever want to talk about it... I'm here for you, and I know what it's like to go through that.
No you don't annoy me. I think its more of the trying to get things together and figure out what we are doing etc etc than anything else. Whereas if I'm by myself I can change my mind or whatever you know? I don't know I'm just being werid and lazy basically.
I loved our walk on the beach the other day. it was awsome...we should do it again soon :)
My Pappap had Alzheimer's the last 8 years of his life (he lived to be 88) and it was really hard. We never put him in a nursing home because my grandmother didn't want it. He tried to kill himself once with a gun but couldn't get the safety off. Someone had to be with him constantly, all of the time. We took turns in shifts when my grandmother was at work (my dad, my mom, and I) and it was really hard and tedious. He fell all of the time, he peed everywhere, and he was a smoker too, so he had to be watched constantly. He fell down the stairs a number of times, that was hard. But I'm glad I got to spend time with him. The last time I ever saw him was a month before he died... I went up to take my dog up there (my mom was having a party) and I felt the random urge to go over and hug and kiss him and tell him I love him (Even though most of the time he didn't know who I was) and my dad told me later that my Pap cried because he was really touched that I did that (my sister was always really cold to him, and we were never very affectionate in general). It makes me cry every time I think about it. *hugs* I'm sorry, I'm sure you didn't want to hear all of that... but I want you to know that if you ever want to talk about it... I'm here for you, and I know what it's like to go through that.
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No you don't annoy me. I think its more of the trying to get things together and figure out what we are doing etc etc than anything else. Whereas if I'm by myself I can change my mind or whatever you know? I don't know I'm just being werid and lazy basically.
I loved our walk on the beach the other day. it was awsome...we should do it again soon :)
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