Incoherence sets off the alarm
Placing down the pen I stared incredulously at my answer script.
It was filled with smatterings of incoherent analysis, bits and pieces from the disorganised pile of information in my head. There was no engagement with the text whatsoever, it only spoke of pretence that I had understood and related to the text.
Argh, Literature papers are getting more and more depressing. As other people crumpled up their used papers after submitting their scripts, I realised that was something I had not done in a long time...Plan. All this while I had been writing, waiting for that elusive muse to come visit again...but she seems to have left for good recently. Or only makes dotted visits, leaving the work inspired only at rare junctures, and chock-full of crap to fill in the spaces. GP was inspired with eccentric tendencies, econs was totally uninspired (just reading it could make me cringe with discomfort at the total lack of structure and insight), math is thankfully mechanical, Lit felt tedious, as every word seemed painfully dragged out of an already burnt-out mind.
I mean, HOW DO YOU EXPECT PEOPLE TO WRITE AN ESSAY AFTER A THREE-HOUR LONG MATH PAPER.
The good thing is, after two papers, you feel INVINCIBLE. I mean, totally HYPER. Like there's this permanent smile on your face and you just feel like spreading the LOVE. Like, HEEHEE I SURVIVED. Gosh I wonder what's gonna happen when I take A levels. Hyper levels should go through the roof. Ah well, we're all entitled to silly behaviour after tests right. I guess this time the pressure's up cos I've been slipping lately and I really wanna prove to myself that I can still achieve something.
I MISS YOU MUSE. COME BACK.
It was filled with smatterings of incoherent analysis, bits and pieces from the disorganised pile of information in my head. There was no engagement with the text whatsoever, it only spoke of pretence that I had understood and related to the text.
Argh, Literature papers are getting more and more depressing. As other people crumpled up their used papers after submitting their scripts, I realised that was something I had not done in a long time...Plan. All this while I had been writing, waiting for that elusive muse to come visit again...but she seems to have left for good recently. Or only makes dotted visits, leaving the work inspired only at rare junctures, and chock-full of crap to fill in the spaces. GP was inspired with eccentric tendencies, econs was totally uninspired (just reading it could make me cringe with discomfort at the total lack of structure and insight), math is thankfully mechanical, Lit felt tedious, as every word seemed painfully dragged out of an already burnt-out mind.
I mean, HOW DO YOU EXPECT PEOPLE TO WRITE AN ESSAY AFTER A THREE-HOUR LONG MATH PAPER.
The good thing is, after two papers, you feel INVINCIBLE. I mean, totally HYPER. Like there's this permanent smile on your face and you just feel like spreading the LOVE. Like, HEEHEE I SURVIVED. Gosh I wonder what's gonna happen when I take A levels. Hyper levels should go through the roof. Ah well, we're all entitled to silly behaviour after tests right. I guess this time the pressure's up cos I've been slipping lately and I really wanna prove to myself that I can still achieve something.
I MISS YOU MUSE. COME BACK.