10 day meme (I've found another addiction...so what?)
- Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now
- Nine things about yourself
- Eight ways to win your heart
- Seven things that cross your mind a lot
- Six things you wish you'd never done
- Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
- Four turn offs
- Three turn ons
- Two smileys that describe your life right now
- One confession
2.) You're one of the closest online friends I have. You're smart, witty, and have the same self-deprecative sense of humour that I have. You are also one of the few people I feel safe to share my insecurities with. I don't think you get told this enough, but you are an amazing, intelligent and beautiful woman. You have also kept me sane throughout the madness that was the bungalow of terror. Thankyou.
3.) I know that you're getting help, but I don't think it's enough, not with everything that's happening with Nan. You've been through so much already in life and you're not even 50 yet. It's only now in retrospect that I see how well yours and Dad's relationship worked; the way you supported each other unconditionally was a rarity in the cold world that we live in. I worry about you every single day, and sometimes consider moving back here permanently so that you're not living alone. But I know that you would hate yourself for me feeling compelled to stay at home and not 'live my life'. Maybe it's because I'm secretly insecure about leaving home permanently.
4.) I wish that we were as close as we used to be. I know we'll always be sisters, but I can't help but feel resentful about how life is tearing us away from each other. Sometimes it feels like I barely know you two anymore, and it scares me.
5.) I really don't know how I feel about you. Most of the time, I'm glad that I'm not in a relationship with you (or anyone else for that matter), since it would be a long-distance one, and like you've said, you're needy. Since I've always been independent and busy, I wouldn't be able to make time for visiting you. And after meeting face-to-face three times, our feeble attempt at a relationship seemed somewhat forced. Don't get me wrong, I still adore you as a person. You're funny, intelligent, attractive, and a genuinely kind person. But our timing was off. And although I tell myself I'm fine and we can make it work as friends, I still wonder if I've missed out on the best thing that has happened to me.
6.) You're a talented writer and an amazing person, both irl and online. I really hope that you'll feel better soon. I'm here for you if you ever need someone to talk to or just listen. As someone who's been in a similar situation, I hope that I can be a good friend and give you the support you need.
7.) Okay, I get it, you're adorable and furry, and need constant reassurance that I'm not going to leave you through the form of cuddles and food. You're my favourite feline in the world, which is saying something, because those tigers are pretty awesome too. But I need my own space, for goodness' sake! I can't think properly or get work done if you're circling my legs or suddenly jumping on my lap for cuddles. I sometimes think you're trying to make me your human slave. Maybe you are trying to take over the world through cuteness. You could be an evil dictator under the guise of a senile old moggy. Hm.
Numbers 8-10 will be done when I have the time. I really am too lazy and tired to do them now.