pondering thoughts
I don't know if it's this time of year, the fact that the 2yr anniversary of my grandmother's death is only a few days away or what, but I just keep thinking about how weird my relationship with my mother is and that her 60th birthday comes at the beginning of January. Don't know of how many here have recalled my past antics about my relationship with my mom and the crap that's gone on in the last 5yrs.
A part of me really feels we need to recognize her birthday, but the bigger part says that she has shown no reason for us to be a part of her life let alone celebrate a birthday. I know it sounds harsh, but it's just truth.
I know my brother won't want any part of it. I just feel like if I try and show her that we are her family maybe she'll come around. then again, it could be a foolish way for all of us to be let down and hurt by her yet again. I just don't know what to do.
A part of me really feels we need to recognize her birthday, but the bigger part says that she has shown no reason for us to be a part of her life let alone celebrate a birthday. I know it sounds harsh, but it's just truth.
I know my brother won't want any part of it. I just feel like if I try and show her that we are her family maybe she'll come around. then again, it could be a foolish way for all of us to be let down and hurt by her yet again. I just don't know what to do.