wondering
i'm sitting here and wondering about 9/11 i know it's not a fun subject, but i'm watching ESPN25: the headlines. this one deals with 9/11. i think that i just came to the realization as i'm sitting here watching the show, that i will probably never be ok with what happened. i know that sounds odd, like "of course you're not going to be okay, no one is" but if you know me well, you know that i'm prety much okay with just about everything that has ever happened in my life. i'm sitting here with tears running down my face (something that NEVER happens) watching the footage from news coverage of that day. it hit hard then, it hit all of us hard then, but i guess i always thought that i'd move past it like i move past everything else. i'm tired of being a grown-up. i'm not okay with not being okay. i was watching the footage and felt myself - in addition to the abject sadness - getting angry. not just butters angry, not even beyond that. i'm talking about a burning hatred. of that day. of what happened. of who did it, of the reasons that they did it (have they ever truly been explained other than to say that we are Americans?)
shifting gears....
i want to make this livejournal thing fun to write and fun to read. since i've been out of college, i haven't had a chance to write a lot, and i thought this would be fun. anyone who reads this knows me, so i'll try to make it fun for you too. notice i don't or at least am not writing it with any capital letters. no, i'm not on an ee cummings kick, but i am doing it for emphasis. sometimes i'll slip up and type one, forgive me. the emphasis is those things that get a capital letter are very important to me. America, the Firehouse, maybe certain people in my life. it's all relative to the time in which the entry will be written. no political messages, or hidden agendas. whatever. also, i'm looking for topics for the sign board outside srlfd station one. let me know if you've got one and i'll put it into haiku
shifting gears....
i want to make this livejournal thing fun to write and fun to read. since i've been out of college, i haven't had a chance to write a lot, and i thought this would be fun. anyone who reads this knows me, so i'll try to make it fun for you too. notice i don't or at least am not writing it with any capital letters. no, i'm not on an ee cummings kick, but i am doing it for emphasis. sometimes i'll slip up and type one, forgive me. the emphasis is those things that get a capital letter are very important to me. America, the Firehouse, maybe certain people in my life. it's all relative to the time in which the entry will be written. no political messages, or hidden agendas. whatever. also, i'm looking for topics for the sign board outside srlfd station one. let me know if you've got one and i'll put it into haiku