hmm
ok.so i talked to the clerk in montgomery county about opening the files to get the info abut my mom's death,but she says we can't because the case isn't closed yet....wierd.
but i did find out the times they have for brian calling them and them getting there..
well basically.
they didn't give me the time of teh first call.
the second call was made at 1:39 am
and they arrived between 2:03 and 2:05
i'm still trying to otu everything together and it's making me crazy how none of it makes sense.
however,i am trying to resolve it inside myself that despite what a terrible excuse of a person my step father is..he wouldn't kill her.she was his meal ticket....although all the things i said about him are completely true..and i still believe he should be reported..mostly for the sake of his real kids..
maybe the money he gets can go to his children for delequent child support..i'd much rather see that..ofcourse i wouldn't see a dime.but i don't actually care.money is just that..money.i mean,it'd be nice to have to help out...but at the same time,i don't feel like i would be able to spend it anyway.
my dad talked to his lawyer for us and it does look like we won't get a red cent anyway,so thats ok.though we are still entitled to community property.she doesn't have alot though...he can keep the house,it's not worth much anyway..and besides none of us wan't the place where my mom passed away :(
we were thinking maybe my brother can have the car...if brian can agree to it.he has twins comming VERY soon..and not the proper automobile to help them get around.which means there will be very little left of value...just whats valueable to us in our hearts..which is enough for me..i have only asked for a locket she used to wear...it had a picture of me in it from when she and i had our pictures professionally done....
so yes..nothing brings her back to me..so none of it matters.
i am looking forward to the next several days though...tommorow night with vicarious me,MAYBE friday with Bob,Saturday with Canvas(yay i love roadtrips) and Sunday with Joseph and Johnny.
all promising to atleast help get my mind off the things going on...though i'm not back to my normal self by any means..i can still muster a smile..even a genuine one on occasion.
I know alot of people have been worried....thank you,but please don't.I'm pretty strong when i need to be.....
but i did find out the times they have for brian calling them and them getting there..
well basically.
they didn't give me the time of teh first call.
the second call was made at 1:39 am
and they arrived between 2:03 and 2:05
i'm still trying to otu everything together and it's making me crazy how none of it makes sense.
however,i am trying to resolve it inside myself that despite what a terrible excuse of a person my step father is..he wouldn't kill her.she was his meal ticket....although all the things i said about him are completely true..and i still believe he should be reported..mostly for the sake of his real kids..
maybe the money he gets can go to his children for delequent child support..i'd much rather see that..ofcourse i wouldn't see a dime.but i don't actually care.money is just that..money.i mean,it'd be nice to have to help out...but at the same time,i don't feel like i would be able to spend it anyway.
my dad talked to his lawyer for us and it does look like we won't get a red cent anyway,so thats ok.though we are still entitled to community property.she doesn't have alot though...he can keep the house,it's not worth much anyway..and besides none of us wan't the place where my mom passed away :(
we were thinking maybe my brother can have the car...if brian can agree to it.he has twins comming VERY soon..and not the proper automobile to help them get around.which means there will be very little left of value...just whats valueable to us in our hearts..which is enough for me..i have only asked for a locket she used to wear...it had a picture of me in it from when she and i had our pictures professionally done....
so yes..nothing brings her back to me..so none of it matters.
i am looking forward to the next several days though...tommorow night with vicarious me,MAYBE friday with Bob,Saturday with Canvas(yay i love roadtrips) and Sunday with Joseph and Johnny.
all promising to atleast help get my mind off the things going on...though i'm not back to my normal self by any means..i can still muster a smile..even a genuine one on occasion.
I know alot of people have been worried....thank you,but please don't.I'm pretty strong when i need to be.....