-_- how can my day get any worse....?
u apparently looked at the title yes? well i shall explain...it all started this morning....
got up, went to school....felt ok...ish.. it slowly went down hill...well..ok scratch that....more like snow balled at the speed of fuckin light
ok...band.....i believe grillo and chris hate me because i am first chair.....we were sight reading this piece...and me and grillo were the only 1st trumpets...he gets up and goes to blow his nose and leaves me to play...they both know how nervous i get...he deliberately did this to make me look bad...and iknow i can't fuckin play...the only reason grillo got second was b.c he cheated....i did it completely fair....i closed my eyes...i only wanted to be first part again....not to make him or anyone look bad....i went to 6th almost in tears...(morelike really picked on and depressed..) not to mention i think that my ex hates me....god...why do i have to be w/ these people for four years? what the hell did i do..to make them hate me? all i wanted was to be good again....to tell u the truth...i want my 8th grade year back...bad....i miss sitting by amy, she was what made band fun...almost all my best friends in one period....god what i would give to just be warped back in time....to the beginning of that year....even if i had to go thru the hell of this year again....i just didn't want to be looked down on again....and now that im at the "top" i dont' want to be...all i wanted was to be at the top maybe once...but...i never wanted to have people hate me for it....
IF YOU WANT FIRST CHAIR SO DAMN BADLY THEN HAVE IT DAMN IT!!! ALL I WANTED WAST TO BE RESPECTED FOR ONCE, NOT BE KICKED AROUND LIKE DIRT!!!
...I know i can't play worth a shit ok....all i wanted was to be happy for once..and playing my trumpet is one of the only things i can think of.....only 3 things make me happy....my trumpet, my friends, and my video games...go ahead and take trumpet from me...cause i know i can't play worth a shit anyway
-My Little Forsaken World-
got up, went to school....felt ok...ish.. it slowly went down hill...well..ok scratch that....more like snow balled at the speed of fuckin light
ok...band.....i believe grillo and chris hate me because i am first chair.....we were sight reading this piece...and me and grillo were the only 1st trumpets...he gets up and goes to blow his nose and leaves me to play...they both know how nervous i get...he deliberately did this to make me look bad...and iknow i can't fuckin play...the only reason grillo got second was b.c he cheated....i did it completely fair....i closed my eyes...i only wanted to be first part again....not to make him or anyone look bad....i went to 6th almost in tears...(morelike really picked on and depressed..) not to mention i think that my ex hates me....god...why do i have to be w/ these people for four years? what the hell did i do..to make them hate me? all i wanted was to be good again....to tell u the truth...i want my 8th grade year back...bad....i miss sitting by amy, she was what made band fun...almost all my best friends in one period....god what i would give to just be warped back in time....to the beginning of that year....even if i had to go thru the hell of this year again....i just didn't want to be looked down on again....and now that im at the "top" i dont' want to be...all i wanted was to be at the top maybe once...but...i never wanted to have people hate me for it....
IF YOU WANT FIRST CHAIR SO DAMN BADLY THEN HAVE IT DAMN IT!!! ALL I WANTED WAST TO BE RESPECTED FOR ONCE, NOT BE KICKED AROUND LIKE DIRT!!!
...I know i can't play worth a shit ok....all i wanted was to be happy for once..and playing my trumpet is one of the only things i can think of.....only 3 things make me happy....my trumpet, my friends, and my video games...go ahead and take trumpet from me...cause i know i can't play worth a shit anyway
-My Little Forsaken World-