and the walls all crumble
im done cring over guys, and people. im done careing what you all think. i dont care about doing what otheres do. Marc i wanna tell u something. the reason i liked u so much is that around you i was myself. i liked being myself. i dont get that chance all that much. i liked that my hair looked like shit and it didnt bother you. i liked not feeling like i had to look perfect for you. i hated seeing u sick, and i wish i could have been with u a whole lot more till u got better. u gave me a chance that no one else has given me. and thats why i liked you. on top of all that you were cool and fun. and your pretty hott... i had to get that out.
so this weekend i went to NH. i was lying on the beach alone cus i felt like being alone. this kid was stareing at me the whole time. it was pretty creepy. i went in the water he watched i was tanning he watched. then he got up and wrote something in the sand. i ignored it. i then must have dozed off cus i woke up to someone asking me for the time. i was pretty pissed cus it was that kid. i told him the time and went back to tanning and he started talking to me. i acted really unintrested and figured maybe i should move to the pool. he painted to the sand where he had written something. it said hi. he said he was shy but always found a way to get what he wants. now that was really stupid. he asked how old i was. then said he was 16. i got ready to go and he asked where i was going. i said the pool. hes like can i have a ride. that totally took me off gaurd and then he got on. so i was like uhh i guess. we went to the pool. he went swimming and i staied back and tanned. now im gettin real pissed cus i want to be alone and im hinting like crazy. i didnt wanna be a bitch. his friends came. told me he was really only 15 until october. i hate being lied too. his friends were cool. this kid wouldnt leave me alone all day tho. finally i was like im going out to eat with ,my parents and ill prolly be in for the night. then im leaveing early. hes like oh well drop by and say goodbye before u go tomorrow. i was like no itll be too early. hes like oh no ill be up ill wait for you. i was like AHH NOOO! after dinner i went to the beach once again only now to talk to ace. now u would think if im on the phone with this guy for a long time he wpuld leave me alone oh no. he found me and sat on my cart while i tried to have a PRIVATE conversation with ace. this kid was straight out rude. i talked on the phone till it started to rain then i dropped the kid off and went home.
next day ate went fishing with papa. came back and got ready to leave. that kid came to my place. i was like omg no. i was like oh im leaveing like right now. hes like oh can i help u pack at all im like no im all set. he sat and just like waited for me to go. now this is getting annoing. i really think it was stupid to try to walk to to my car and close my car door for me. im just like AHH leave ME alone!!! there was so much more too it too. ill tell if u ask. anyways so this weekend was really annoing.
Ace i miss u. <3
i hung out with a bunch of people the other day and had an awesome time. we gotta do that again guys.
so the 23rd im going camping and hikeing. *yay*
bah.the weekend after marc may come up. i hope so. i think we would have fun.
so this weekend i went to NH. i was lying on the beach alone cus i felt like being alone. this kid was stareing at me the whole time. it was pretty creepy. i went in the water he watched i was tanning he watched. then he got up and wrote something in the sand. i ignored it. i then must have dozed off cus i woke up to someone asking me for the time. i was pretty pissed cus it was that kid. i told him the time and went back to tanning and he started talking to me. i acted really unintrested and figured maybe i should move to the pool. he painted to the sand where he had written something. it said hi. he said he was shy but always found a way to get what he wants. now that was really stupid. he asked how old i was. then said he was 16. i got ready to go and he asked where i was going. i said the pool. hes like can i have a ride. that totally took me off gaurd and then he got on. so i was like uhh i guess. we went to the pool. he went swimming and i staied back and tanned. now im gettin real pissed cus i want to be alone and im hinting like crazy. i didnt wanna be a bitch. his friends came. told me he was really only 15 until october. i hate being lied too. his friends were cool. this kid wouldnt leave me alone all day tho. finally i was like im going out to eat with ,my parents and ill prolly be in for the night. then im leaveing early. hes like oh well drop by and say goodbye before u go tomorrow. i was like no itll be too early. hes like oh no ill be up ill wait for you. i was like AHH NOOO! after dinner i went to the beach once again only now to talk to ace. now u would think if im on the phone with this guy for a long time he wpuld leave me alone oh no. he found me and sat on my cart while i tried to have a PRIVATE conversation with ace. this kid was straight out rude. i talked on the phone till it started to rain then i dropped the kid off and went home.
next day ate went fishing with papa. came back and got ready to leave. that kid came to my place. i was like omg no. i was like oh im leaveing like right now. hes like oh can i help u pack at all im like no im all set. he sat and just like waited for me to go. now this is getting annoing. i really think it was stupid to try to walk to to my car and close my car door for me. im just like AHH leave ME alone!!! there was so much more too it too. ill tell if u ask. anyways so this weekend was really annoing.
Ace i miss u. <3
i hung out with a bunch of people the other day and had an awesome time. we gotta do that again guys.
so the 23rd im going camping and hikeing. *yay*
bah.the weekend after marc may come up. i hope so. i think we would have fun.