[a year.]

[firelle]

it's been a year since my disease surfaced. what changed? almost nothing. i don't drink and i have to take shitload of pills and visit hospital once a month. besides - nothing. i do get worse and better, i worry and don't care. i ignore or am terrified. but it's always been like that. i started to ignore SM, more or less. it took parts of my eyesight and parts of my touch - whatever. it feels like it's always been like that.

i s'pose it's good.