after day of thinking and almost killing something or someone i sat and googled "top/bottom" and i got a fuckton of shit.
seriously? bottom/top, dominant/submissive, so much clear lines i wanted to puke. i'm a dominant cis-girl with men but they fuck me. not like i can really try a strap on. but anyway.
the advices for how to be a good top are just...
. basically a god top takes cares of his bottom and bottom is like an animal, petted, caressed, loved.
WHY IS THERE NO ADVICE THAT IT'S GOOD TO LET YOUR BOTTOM TOUCH OU, KISS YOU, FEEL YOU, AROUSE YOU?! WHY IS HE REDUCED TO A PILE OF MUSCLES THAT NEED TO BE IGNITED?!
even if i don't top and have an equal sex or, rarely, submit to a guy i'm still active. just feelin and making him do all the work is... i mean, it's okay, it's not bad. but why isn't anywhere mentioned that it's good to et your bottom participate?
the more i read about gay lifestyle the more DNW i get.