[OLD note about fandom, klaine and ship wars.]

Nov 26, 2011 11:13

ship wars, i HATE IT.

i can present arguments, listen to arguments, understand them and not get mad.

i wasn’t a klaine shipper. but how did i learn to ship klaine? because i was blaine once. i was in his position. oblivious, not realising, AFRAID. he’s FAR from perfect, he’s just a boy with many faults. he’s not an ideal. i can sit here and list the things he did wrong for hours, of course. the same goes for kurt, sam, finn, karofsky, EVERYONE. they’re not only human but teenage boys who's just started to learn how to live, make decisions, judge. i understand someone might dislike blaine, hell, i’m NOT his fan. i find him okay, maybe like a little but i wouldn’t care less if he wasn’t with kurt. what i don’t get is when people start to hate blaine because he turned out to be not perfect. because some people’s arguments, as to why blaine is bad for kurt, seem to be “he was ideal, now he’s just a boy”. shouldn’t that be, like, GOOD?

truthfully, i learned to ship klaine. because of fanfics. after christmas episode i still didn’t see ANYTHING between them. i saw no chemistry, nothing, just a mentor - sudent relationship. but then i started to read fanfics and i guess i started to see more than there was in canon and, well, can’t help it, now i ship klaine - it happens i think i ship it even more now because blaine’s so full of faults. because he’s confused, searching and determined. because he’s not weak but not too strong and he’s in the same position as kurt. they’re on the same level and their relationship won’t be easy, no relationship is. they’ll learn from each other. and kurt will have the chance to be strong for someone and yet to have someone there be strong for him when he needs it. even if blaine’s not ideal. neither kurt is.

even when i wasn’t shipping kurt and blaine i didn’t ship kurt with sam or karofsky either. honestly, i didn’t ship kurt with anyone (maybe with finn a little). and i guess, if i think hard, then i know why, even now, i don’t see ANYONE right for kurt there. though, sadly, blaine is the closest to my image of kurt’s boyfriend that i have in my mind. but blaine from latest 3-4 episodes. when he started to be human.

why it’s not blaine?
i’m not sure anymore, blaine grew on me. i know why it wasn’t blaine. he was too stiff, too platonic, hell, i found him arrogant and looking at kurt as at some sort of obligation he had. i saw no chemistry back then. but later blaine showed that he’s just a boy. simple, stupid, awkward boy who makes mistakes and tries too hard and at the same time not hard enough. who cared about kurt even before he realised in what way. who cared even without knowing he did. who had feelings he didn’t notice. and when he did, he had no idea how to approach or name them. just a teenager; lost, searching, trying. so yeah, i don’t know why it shouldn’t be blaine right now. he and kurt surely will have ups and downs. I HOPE THEY WILL. i hope kurt will have realistic relationship and we all know that in life nothing’s just pretty or just ugly. so i’ll wait and see.

why it’s not sam?
i wanted it to be sam. I WANTED IT BAD. while when it comes to blaine it took me time to see chemistry and sparks, with sam it was just there. but it ended as fast as it started. in one episode. instead of, even awkwardly, trying to approach kurt, sam went to quinn, to boost his popularity. he lost so many points then, in my opinion. i like sam. i see him as someone with huge character potential: see his insecurities. i hope it gets approached. but as for sam and kurt? there’s one thing which prevents me from shipping it: let’s say sam’s bisexual. where was he when kurt was hurt and miserable while he got bullied for being gay? why didn’t he comfort him with “hey, you’re not alone. i don’t want to be out but i want YOU to know that YOU’RE NOT ALONE”. kurt was alone. even if sam didn’t want anyone to know he should’ve told kurt and give him support far from everyone’s eyes. he didn’t. kurt suffered. and i love kurt so i can’t forgive sam. sam didn’t trust kurt (if we assume sam’s bi), didn’t help him, avoided it. and if he’s “the same” as kurt, he shouldn’t have. it took a total stranger, blaine, to help kurt, to be there for kurt. while sam, someone close, did nothing. so, i’d have hard time forgiving sam. i understand that sam can be just like blaine: searching, confused, trying (i believe he is). but in this case blaine wins because he’s open and trying while sam isn’t. or at least, we don’t know if he is.

why it’s not karofsky?
okay. i want him to change, i want him to be forgiven, to be understood and given support. god, i WANT this. but i’ll go SLIGHTLY mad if kurt ends up with him. because i don’t believe in falling for someone who brought you nightmares, who threatened to kill you, who drove you away from your friends and happiness. who tormented you. karofsky’s lost, he is. he needs help and glee should show that he DESERVES help. but he doesn’t deserve kurt. he’s hurt him too much.

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i’m not a blind shipper who will go and yell “KLAINE IS RIGHT AND EVERYTHING ELSE IS INVALID BECAUSE I SAY SO”. no. i can be objective and i see both good and bad sides. i just think it’s right and that’s how i feel. it’s as much right as someone who feels klaine is wrong. both me and them are right. because everyone can have an opinion. and no one is wrong in that.

but honestly? klaine is right to me because it’s what kurt wants at the moment. he wants it, i love kurt, i support it. he wants karofsky? well, i’d be a bit baffled but i’d say “okay, if this makes kurt genuinely happy, then i’ll support it (while crying in pain)”. because i adore kurt in the first place.

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one klaine fault? RUSHED. it was fucking RUSHED. blaine pulled his feelings out of his ass. i wanted them to get there, to be together but like this? TOO FAST. today i like you, tommorow i love you like no one else ever did. sorry, i don’t buy it. i’m HAPPY but still with bitter after taste. i wanted it to build, romance, wooing, kurt to be strong himself and THEN with blaine. so, YEAH.

and i’m more than happy to read things like that from other shippers. instead of hate messages. it’s easy.

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