[klaine makes me think. a lot.]
days until GLEE is back from summer's hiatus: 8
notes written about one fanfiction series. yes, i couldn't sleep because of it.
klaine - list series.
this fanfic is drawing me insane. and because of that i make people crazy because i spam my livejournal with it, i spam my twitter, i spam my poor friend’s cellphone’s with text messages sent at 4am.
because i can’t sleep, i toss around thinking about this fanfic. and i nearly got run by a car because i was walking while trying to figure things out.
and the funniest thing is that this series is basically porn. yet the plot smuggled between the hotness is so good it makes my head boil. gosh, i love this author.
i just. don’t know. i mean. i too had similar situations going. where it was only physical, just sex. but under my skin i was questioning us “what are we? just fuck buddies? more?” because i didn’t want to be more but was unsure about the other party. hello, lack of communication. or other way around: i dated, we went to the movies, dinners, walked around the park but without anything stated and for me it was just... close relationship. i didn’t know they wanted more. i felt so stupid. again, lack of naming things hurts. or my awful relationship which lasted a year and then broke and i found out they didn’t consider us an “item”. a whole year i was happy about something that wasn’t even there.
so yeah, it happens. but these boys? i don’t get it. i mean. i reread first chapter so many times i think i can quote it from memory. what happened? do we, humans, REALLY need labels so much?
- blaine kisses kurt saying he wanted it to be different, roses, candles and stuff;
- it should be an obvious start at relationship, kurt says he’s waited forever for blaine to do it;
then something goes wrong. what? maybe it’s because on that night, after the kiss, they didn’t clarify anything? but this was THE kiss, a big deal. were they afraid to talk about it? but they changed, their acting around each other changed (and i don’t mean all that sex). maybe kurt set wrong path by jumping to bed with blaine that fast, soon and desperate? maybe kurt would have rather fuck blaine, knowing blaine wants it, than ask and try to clarify and maybe lose him? but how is kurt explaining the fact that blaine kissed him? isn’t that a proof? or maybe their only problem is that... holy shit. i have no idea. it’s 2am.
i won’t sleep today either i guess. and i get the feeling there won’t be any happy end to this series. between list series and the overload of questions regarding kurt in “sexy”, i’m going crazy. can’t focus.
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i can't stop thinking. i wish someone could read it because i need to discuss. and yes, it's pure porn mixed with very deep and emotional plot. and mature. things i don't get, their relationship, expectations. and, to be honest, other people comments made me confused. and first part made me confused. because it was WARM, blaine said something about planning and roses which seemed like a prologue to an actual relationship, the victory dance. where did it go? how did it all come down to just sex? and unspoken longing for something more? because at first, before kurt slipped out about the list, they seemed like a pair that just started. or was i mistaken? did they seem like two guys who were happy that they finally gave into their desires? i can write essays about this. and it's porn. it's about sexual kinks. but, holy fuck.
notes written about one fanfiction series. yes, i couldn't sleep because of it.
klaine - list series.
this fanfic is drawing me insane. and because of that i make people crazy because i spam my livejournal with it, i spam my twitter, i spam my poor friend’s cellphone’s with text messages sent at 4am.
because i can’t sleep, i toss around thinking about this fanfic. and i nearly got run by a car because i was walking while trying to figure things out.
and the funniest thing is that this series is basically porn. yet the plot smuggled between the hotness is so good it makes my head boil. gosh, i love this author.
i just. don’t know. i mean. i too had similar situations going. where it was only physical, just sex. but under my skin i was questioning us “what are we? just fuck buddies? more?” because i didn’t want to be more but was unsure about the other party. hello, lack of communication. or other way around: i dated, we went to the movies, dinners, walked around the park but without anything stated and for me it was just... close relationship. i didn’t know they wanted more. i felt so stupid. again, lack of naming things hurts. or my awful relationship which lasted a year and then broke and i found out they didn’t consider us an “item”. a whole year i was happy about something that wasn’t even there.
so yeah, it happens. but these boys? i don’t get it. i mean. i reread first chapter so many times i think i can quote it from memory. what happened? do we, humans, REALLY need labels so much?
- blaine kisses kurt saying he wanted it to be different, roses, candles and stuff;
- it should be an obvious start at relationship, kurt says he’s waited forever for blaine to do it;
then something goes wrong. what? maybe it’s because on that night, after the kiss, they didn’t clarify anything? but this was THE kiss, a big deal. were they afraid to talk about it? but they changed, their acting around each other changed (and i don’t mean all that sex). maybe kurt set wrong path by jumping to bed with blaine that fast, soon and desperate? maybe kurt would have rather fuck blaine, knowing blaine wants it, than ask and try to clarify and maybe lose him? but how is kurt explaining the fact that blaine kissed him? isn’t that a proof? or maybe their only problem is that... holy shit. i have no idea. it’s 2am.
i won’t sleep today either i guess. and i get the feeling there won’t be any happy end to this series. between list series and the overload of questions regarding kurt in “sexy”, i’m going crazy. can’t focus.
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i can't stop thinking. i wish someone could read it because i need to discuss. and yes, it's pure porn mixed with very deep and emotional plot. and mature. things i don't get, their relationship, expectations. and, to be honest, other people comments made me confused. and first part made me confused. because it was WARM, blaine said something about planning and roses which seemed like a prologue to an actual relationship, the victory dance. where did it go? how did it all come down to just sex? and unspoken longing for something more? because at first, before kurt slipped out about the list, they seemed like a pair that just started. or was i mistaken? did they seem like two guys who were happy that they finally gave into their desires? i can write essays about this. and it's porn. it's about sexual kinks. but, holy fuck.