[that wasn't nice.]
days until GLEE is back from summer's hiatus: 39
lady's night. yeah, that's cool. we discovered that there's this one place where, every friday, ladies can come in for free and certain drinks are free too. granted, there's almost no vodka in them but still, you get this awesome slight buzz. for free. free. and then you can drink awesome malibu with pineapple juice and part of orange and just die because nothing on earth tastes better.
but it's not all wonderful. it was the first time i felt really unpretty. unclothed. unattractive. girls and women there, even those i were with, were so stylish, glamorous. i don't have anything to wear like that, dresses, shoes, shirts, skirts, pants. in jeans i felt so ordinary. usually i feel really good about myself but back then, no. granted only one girl at our table was straight, the rest was lesbian or bisexual (and, god, a girl from my job i really disliked and i'm positive she disliked me for no reason too). i felt unattractive. i wanted to run home, hide and never go out. first time in my life.
foreign feeling and i know i don't like it.
lady's night. yeah, that's cool. we discovered that there's this one place where, every friday, ladies can come in for free and certain drinks are free too. granted, there's almost no vodka in them but still, you get this awesome slight buzz. for free. free. and then you can drink awesome malibu with pineapple juice and part of orange and just die because nothing on earth tastes better.
but it's not all wonderful. it was the first time i felt really unpretty. unclothed. unattractive. girls and women there, even those i were with, were so stylish, glamorous. i don't have anything to wear like that, dresses, shoes, shirts, skirts, pants. in jeans i felt so ordinary. usually i feel really good about myself but back then, no. granted only one girl at our table was straight, the rest was lesbian or bisexual (and, god, a girl from my job i really disliked and i'm positive she disliked me for no reason too). i felt unattractive. i wanted to run home, hide and never go out. first time in my life.
foreign feeling and i know i don't like it.