[moving back home. not happy. at all.]
days left until next glee: 15
i haven't added anything to my note-dump in days. omg. where is my creative self who ALWAYS has something to say?!
REAL PERSON SHIPPING. I'M WARMING UP TO IT. HOW CAN I NOT WHEN DARREN AND CHRIS ACT AS THEY DO. BLAINE CREYS.
and yes. i don’t like it in general but the following rant was born because of darren and chris’ photos. darren is straight which he said himself (and unless he states differently i’m believing this because, seriously, why should i doubt?). chris is gay which he said himself and, again, there’s no reason not to believe. the characters they PLAY (not THEM with the exception of chris being gay) are gay and in love. those are all facts. darren and chris seem to be friends, this is also a fact. but to some people they have an affair. i mean, of course it CAN be true (everything can, chris could have gotten some girl pregnant while drunk, etc, etc) but where does it come from?
because they hug? two friends can’t?
because they flirt in front of cameras with suggestions to the characters they play?
because they smile at each other? two friends, maybe even close friends, can’t?
because the characters they play are in love? hello? someone misses the bold line between work and reality?
i mean, i wouldn’t mind if that were true. i’d be happy because i LOVE slash in ALL forms. but to assume such things just because chris is gay and they both play gay characters ad they’re good friends? i think it’s going overboard. a little. i’m glad chris probably doesn’t know and if he did he wouldn’t care, same for darren.
no, really.
ALSO i’ve noticed that i’m changing my views on gays. i mean, before it was instant “gagaga”, excitement, being awe-struck and jealous. like i’ve seen gods, like they’re ubermensch. as if their emotions towards each other were superior to those of lesbians and heterosexuals. but it’s somehow changing. genders are starting to blend for me. true, i can’t bring myself to feel that enchanted by boy and girl romance. but boy and boy seems so… identical to girl and girl. and it should be like that. no matter what sexuality it’s always about humans which means the feelings are more or less the same. so i read about gay romance and i think “i can have that too, with a pretty girl or darren criss and oh my god i DID NOT WRITE IT because i’m not under his spell., look into her eyes, just feel her.” i can be a teenager girl again and i can have my gay feelings pouring out of me into some delicate yet strong woman. it’s just that i miss my gay-frenzy a little bit. hope it returns.
i haven't added anything to my note-dump in days. omg. where is my creative self who ALWAYS has something to say?!
REAL PERSON SHIPPING. I'M WARMING UP TO IT. HOW CAN I NOT WHEN DARREN AND CHRIS ACT AS THEY DO. BLAINE CREYS.
and yes. i don’t like it in general but the following rant was born because of darren and chris’ photos. darren is straight which he said himself (and unless he states differently i’m believing this because, seriously, why should i doubt?). chris is gay which he said himself and, again, there’s no reason not to believe. the characters they PLAY (not THEM with the exception of chris being gay) are gay and in love. those are all facts. darren and chris seem to be friends, this is also a fact. but to some people they have an affair. i mean, of course it CAN be true (everything can, chris could have gotten some girl pregnant while drunk, etc, etc) but where does it come from?
because they hug? two friends can’t?
because they flirt in front of cameras with suggestions to the characters they play?
because they smile at each other? two friends, maybe even close friends, can’t?
because the characters they play are in love? hello? someone misses the bold line between work and reality?
i mean, i wouldn’t mind if that were true. i’d be happy because i LOVE slash in ALL forms. but to assume such things just because chris is gay and they both play gay characters ad they’re good friends? i think it’s going overboard. a little. i’m glad chris probably doesn’t know and if he did he wouldn’t care, same for darren.
no, really.
ALSO i’ve noticed that i’m changing my views on gays. i mean, before it was instant “gagaga”, excitement, being awe-struck and jealous. like i’ve seen gods, like they’re ubermensch. as if their emotions towards each other were superior to those of lesbians and heterosexuals. but it’s somehow changing. genders are starting to blend for me. true, i can’t bring myself to feel that enchanted by boy and girl romance. but boy and boy seems so… identical to girl and girl. and it should be like that. no matter what sexuality it’s always about humans which means the feelings are more or less the same. so i read about gay romance and i think “i can have that too, with a pretty girl or darren criss and oh my god i DID NOT WRITE IT because i’m not under his spell., look into her eyes, just feel her.” i can be a teenager girl again and i can have my gay feelings pouring out of me into some delicate yet strong woman. it’s just that i miss my gay-frenzy a little bit. hope it returns.