[glee; the longest note EVER.]
i have around twenty wonderful fanfics open, ready to be read. but i decided to at least TRY to form something coherent out of my random notes. i need to write about three (four) glee episodes, so much happened, this show is still fucking good. so yeah, i can TRY.
edit: I CAN'T WRITE THIS GODDAMN NOTE, OMG. AND TOMORROW'S NEW GLEE SO EVEN MORE TO WRITE ABOUT. AND THEY'RE FILMING REGIONALS. AND, AND...
edit 2: i really can't finish writing this. and it's so.. relevant? and i need to add another episode, oh god.
edit 3: amidst my angst and emo i'm stubborn to finish this note.
glee: 2x11, the sue sylvester shuffle
this episode was supposed to be OMG AWESOME. while, yes, it was nice, it didn't sweep me off my feet or anything like that. i expected more, to be honest. something like a BOOM, something huge, spectacular. and even the cheerios number at the beginning was... just okay. same for thriller: it was just okay. but i loved the fact that santana, brit and quinn left cheerios. i wonder what happens. no more of them? never cheerios again? that's interesting. also, the whole "bonding" between football jocks and glee club was very nice and heart warming. finn was awesome in this ep. puck too. and sam, mike, artie, generally glee boys. i'm so proud of them in this episode. i might have been... a little thrown off by karofsky's sudden change but... KAROFSKY. i LOVED it. i loved that they've shown, in tiny little bits, his fear of being called "gay", his fear of his own identity. it wasn't much but it was visible. his struggle, his insecurity. this is one of the best storylines in glee and i hope ryan doesn't screw this up. he's screwing kurt and blaine's storyline, why screw more?
all in all. not as good as i'd want it to be but definitely okay. but warbler's "bills, bills, bills", while awesome (if we forget it's again blaine, blaine will sing in fucking every episode and make me so mad i'll drop watching this), was... not needed. i mean, it was there JUST to show darren criss, latest baby of ryan. ryan murphy adopted darren and disowned chris colfer. screw you, ryan.
blaine loves football, i love scarves.
glee: 2x12, silly love songs
THIS EPISODE WAS THE BEST GLEE EPISODES EVER. EVER. I LITERALLY CRIED FROM OVERFLOWING HAPPINESS WHILE WATCHING. EVERYTHING WAS AWESOME. EVERYTHING.
- lauren and puck. honestly, i'm not so sure what to think. i don't have anything against oversized or bigsized women (i mean, look at mercedes. she's GORGEOUS) though they're not my type really. but... i just don't find lauren too charming. and while her wit, stubbornness, kickassness and strength was cool at first it got old. when she refused and refused and refused puck i thought "what the hell, woman. yes or no." on the other hand puck just stole my hearth again. gosh, i love this guy. i want him and kurt to have some funny and nice friendship going. PLEASE?
- KURT & BLAINE. okay. there's so much to write about it i don't know where to start. it was made of awesome. and yes, while it wasn't really klaine-happy it was still everything i wanted and more. first, the first coffee shop scene. their talk, kurt's expectations. you know my coffee order? of course i do. perfect much? not much? everything that's needed? small, soft, just a light hint that blaine CARES. that they've got something incredible going between them. because they have. they hang out and in this scene we can see how comfortable with each other they are. and then, the hope and realisation that it's not him, not what he wanted. that blaine wasn't singing to him. and THEN something absolutely incredible: kurt's maturity. when did he grow up so much? when did he turn from bitchy diva to calm and collected, resolute and understanding? and strong? despite his feelings being crushed, he still stood up by blaine, he still cheered him on, he still was there. oh kurt, i think i love you to the point it's unhealthy. and, THEN, second coffee shop scene. i think it's the one fandom will always write in capital letter as The Scene. where kurt found courage to be honest, to confess to blaine, to open his heart but without demanding, without sounding offensive or hurt. he just told blaine that he hoped it was him. and then blaine, oh blaine, who showed himself as insecure, not knowing what he's doing, oblivious and clueless. who, probably, has something for kurt but can't name it, can't really identify it. i think he's lost with his feelings, he knows they're there but without knowing their shape he can't really act on them. so he's honest too. he tells kurt what he really wants: he wants to have kurt always, never lose him. and because of that he won't do anything, he's too scared of screwing things up which could lead to breaking them up. so kurt, again, shows his maturity, he says it's okay, he settles for friendship because he cares. he wants to have blaine by his side and he knows blaine wants him. where will they go with their feelings? they don't know. they're not rushing. it's awesome. deep. complex. so much what i wanted.
- kurt, rachel and mercedes' pyjamas sleepover. ADORABLE. oh god, how i love kurt and his girls being all giggly, girly and just painfully cute. they way they interacted was IDEAL and i'm so happy rachel was included i'm surprised myself. before this i wouldn't think about her as an addition to kurt & mercedes but just as it happened i realised it was ideal. she and kurt are really similar, so much that they can really understand each other and hold onto another. now i can't imagine quinn or santana in rachel's place. it's that three divas that have just perfect chemistry and understanding. and killer pyjamas. and, oh my god, kurt ate pizza.
- finn. as much as he was awesome in the super bowl episode he's a total jerk here. and quinn is a whore who wears a cross on her neck. i'm neither amused nor impressed. i like the honest, dorky, rather stupid finn so much and that one: over-confident, selfish, arrogant is bad for my heart. and quinn... oh well. i need to remember they're all stupid teenagers.
- sam. sam. SAM. i have no idea what to do with him. it surprised me but... him hooking up with santana made me look at him softer and maybe i'd give him a chance at a relationship with kurt (because this thing apparently hasn't died around fandom). but only if the explanation of everything stupid he does would be that he's lost, confused and unsure (which he, as i remember, admitted). but he wouldn't give kurt happiness and i want to see kurt happy in a stable relationship. god, i believe it's possible. anyway, sam treated quinn in an awful manner. even if she deserved everything. she's cheating again.
- finn & rachel part. i, actually, felt so sorry for rachel there i had tears in my eyes. i loved this scene where finn was in bed and rachel looked after him. it was painful, heartbreaking and deep. finn is a douche and rachel... rachel was so human here. resolute, understanding and damn strong. i really liked her in this part and my love-hate relationship with her continues.
- the performance at the end: blaine, what's your problem? you don't sing "i love you" to the person you've just turned down. but still, i loved it. new directions and warblers interacting. i love fics about that, i love seeing it.
glee: 2x13, comeback
episode that, well, didn't really impress me that much. and it wasn't really because there was lack of kurt (omg, first time he wasn't in an episode). just... after SLS which set high standards, comeback was just... ok. of course not sue. sue was awesome. sue is ALWAYS awesome. i think she's my second favourite character (along with burt <33). kurt and sue. and then... okay, i have no idea who i like aside from them. i guess it's everyone all together. anyway, episode. sam was adorable and, jesus god, he made me like justin bieber's song. of course glee guys were dorky and stupid (and adorable <333), finn was... oh my god, i love finn in fanfiction, he's so... huggable. yet canon finn has become something utterly disgusting. manipulative. self-centered. i don't like him now. and with his recent character development i'm not sure if i still want brotherly love with kurt, i expect he'd be a moron about that. and SUE. the bits with her, will and children made me grin madly. sue's soft side showing always bring this reaction out of me. but sue is sue so she threw a curve ball and... oh god, she's competing against ND. I CAN'T WAIT.
glee: 2x14, blame it on the alcohol
- OKAY. glee is on its way to kill me. it's got some sort of good-omg!awesome-good-omg!awesome episodes pattern. BIOTA episode was BREATHTAKING. so much development, so much insight into characters, so many changes. jesus. and so much second hand embarrassment i was able to watch it only one time and it's hard to just start it now in order to refresh it and write a review.
- rachel's first attempt at original song KILLED ME. oh my god.
- the party. i loved how the glee kids got drunk and crazy. rachel wore... i don't know what was what she had on her but it was AWFUL. i mean, maybe it wasn't that bad but she couldn't really rock it. i have a night gown that looks similar, for christ sake. so the party was fun. OVERLOADED WITH SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT, as i said. i feel so awkward when i see kurt's... i don't know, "gay moves" while he dances. okay, maybe gay moves is something ridiculously homophobic to say but... i guess i just dislike it. it's so awkward. everyone finds it hot, well, i don't. unless kurt does what chris colfer does: UNLEASHES HIS PELVIC THRUSTS. and that's hot. blaine drunk and dancing? PRICELESS. i mean, i died.
- and this leads to blaine and kurt in this episode. and they made an impact. like whoa. first of all: drunk blaine kissing rachel. and i'm so conflicted about how i feel about this. for once: they're drunk - i've been drunk enough times to know you do STUPID things you regret when you're this... well, under influence. for twice (lol): it's just a spin bottle game. what i've done because of something like that... well. blaine admitted to being clueless. so that and the fact that he was done for is enough to act thoughtlessly. he probably didn't even realise what it must meant for kurt to see him kissing someone right in front of him. and for kurt it was probably painful. he likes blaine and he's settled for friendship but it doesn't mean he won't cry when he sees blaine fooling around with someone else. so yeah, it's hard. complicated situation. blaine is a king of cluelessness and mixed signals.
- kurt and blaine: fight. i'm honestly too tired to write about it. i've seen so many ESSAYS on who's right and who's wrong. as in 99% cases of fights, they both are. kurt seriously irked me, for the very first time and it was HARD how much, when he basically said he didn't believe in bisexuality. i'm bisexual, so, kurtie my precious boy, you made me mad. also, words as hurtful and biphobic as that coming out of kurt, the very target of bullying because of sexuality is just... kurt, if you really meant it and if it wasn't said just because you were mad at blaine then it makes you a hypocrite. i'm sorry, but yes. i can understand his fury, though. he still idolises blaine (he shouldn't), he was afraid of losing a gay fellow, he was jealous because he likes blaine. so he said too much. he didn't support blaine because of all the conflicted feelings. as for blaine, i understand him. he wanted kurt to be there for him while he was uncertain, of course. but he's oblivious and inexperienced and he doesn't understand that it's hard for kurt to do that as he likes him. and blaine, under no circumstances, should have compared kurt to karofsky. ah, boys. ah, teenage angst (okay, it's not just teenage, adulthood is packed with it, too). i wonder if they'll be stil fighting in next episode. oh god, how i love their relationship, whatever it is.
- rachel. okay, anything she gained in previous episodes was lost here. she's a fake friend, her self absorbed confidence and arrogance and egoism came back. she's kurt's friend and she damned KNEW of kurt's feelings. yet she went for blaine. and, jesus god, she slapped kurt i the face LITERALLY and AUDIBLY saying that "no, who cares about your feelings and your heart if i can gain something out of it". had she not said it, i'd have hope she was... clueless. but she admitted to not caring about kurt. so, old rachel whom i hate is back. i hope not.
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- it kinda hurts to see kurt so happy and love struck and know he'll have his heart broken.
- all theories fell apart: blaine is NOT experienced, blaine does NOT know what he's doing, blaine does NOT ask kurt out. i can't wait for how they progress.
- i'm talking to myself and screaming to myself and what not, screw what my bro thinks, i slept 3 hours, my hair is dirty, i have panda eyes, i sob like an idiot and i desperately need a shower but fuck, who cares, jesus this episode was so much and more, omg my life is complete now.
- blaine developed personality.
- he's got surname.
- he's more dorky and insecure than kurt, if they (ok, WHEN) end up together kurt'll be the man. but blaine will stuck fuck him. totally.
edit: I CAN'T WRITE THIS GODDAMN NOTE, OMG. AND TOMORROW'S NEW GLEE SO EVEN MORE TO WRITE ABOUT. AND THEY'RE FILMING REGIONALS. AND, AND...
edit 2: i really can't finish writing this. and it's so.. relevant? and i need to add another episode, oh god.
edit 3: amidst my angst and emo i'm stubborn to finish this note.
glee: 2x11, the sue sylvester shuffle
this episode was supposed to be OMG AWESOME. while, yes, it was nice, it didn't sweep me off my feet or anything like that. i expected more, to be honest. something like a BOOM, something huge, spectacular. and even the cheerios number at the beginning was... just okay. same for thriller: it was just okay. but i loved the fact that santana, brit and quinn left cheerios. i wonder what happens. no more of them? never cheerios again? that's interesting. also, the whole "bonding" between football jocks and glee club was very nice and heart warming. finn was awesome in this ep. puck too. and sam, mike, artie, generally glee boys. i'm so proud of them in this episode. i might have been... a little thrown off by karofsky's sudden change but... KAROFSKY. i LOVED it. i loved that they've shown, in tiny little bits, his fear of being called "gay", his fear of his own identity. it wasn't much but it was visible. his struggle, his insecurity. this is one of the best storylines in glee and i hope ryan doesn't screw this up. he's screwing kurt and blaine's storyline, why screw more?
all in all. not as good as i'd want it to be but definitely okay. but warbler's "bills, bills, bills", while awesome (if we forget it's again blaine, blaine will sing in fucking every episode and make me so mad i'll drop watching this), was... not needed. i mean, it was there JUST to show darren criss, latest baby of ryan. ryan murphy adopted darren and disowned chris colfer. screw you, ryan.
blaine loves football, i love scarves.
glee: 2x12, silly love songs
THIS EPISODE WAS THE BEST GLEE EPISODES EVER. EVER. I LITERALLY CRIED FROM OVERFLOWING HAPPINESS WHILE WATCHING. EVERYTHING WAS AWESOME. EVERYTHING.
- lauren and puck. honestly, i'm not so sure what to think. i don't have anything against oversized or bigsized women (i mean, look at mercedes. she's GORGEOUS) though they're not my type really. but... i just don't find lauren too charming. and while her wit, stubbornness, kickassness and strength was cool at first it got old. when she refused and refused and refused puck i thought "what the hell, woman. yes or no." on the other hand puck just stole my hearth again. gosh, i love this guy. i want him and kurt to have some funny and nice friendship going. PLEASE?
- KURT & BLAINE. okay. there's so much to write about it i don't know where to start. it was made of awesome. and yes, while it wasn't really klaine-happy it was still everything i wanted and more. first, the first coffee shop scene. their talk, kurt's expectations. you know my coffee order? of course i do. perfect much? not much? everything that's needed? small, soft, just a light hint that blaine CARES. that they've got something incredible going between them. because they have. they hang out and in this scene we can see how comfortable with each other they are. and then, the hope and realisation that it's not him, not what he wanted. that blaine wasn't singing to him. and THEN something absolutely incredible: kurt's maturity. when did he grow up so much? when did he turn from bitchy diva to calm and collected, resolute and understanding? and strong? despite his feelings being crushed, he still stood up by blaine, he still cheered him on, he still was there. oh kurt, i think i love you to the point it's unhealthy. and, THEN, second coffee shop scene. i think it's the one fandom will always write in capital letter as The Scene. where kurt found courage to be honest, to confess to blaine, to open his heart but without demanding, without sounding offensive or hurt. he just told blaine that he hoped it was him. and then blaine, oh blaine, who showed himself as insecure, not knowing what he's doing, oblivious and clueless. who, probably, has something for kurt but can't name it, can't really identify it. i think he's lost with his feelings, he knows they're there but without knowing their shape he can't really act on them. so he's honest too. he tells kurt what he really wants: he wants to have kurt always, never lose him. and because of that he won't do anything, he's too scared of screwing things up which could lead to breaking them up. so kurt, again, shows his maturity, he says it's okay, he settles for friendship because he cares. he wants to have blaine by his side and he knows blaine wants him. where will they go with their feelings? they don't know. they're not rushing. it's awesome. deep. complex. so much what i wanted.
- kurt, rachel and mercedes' pyjamas sleepover. ADORABLE. oh god, how i love kurt and his girls being all giggly, girly and just painfully cute. they way they interacted was IDEAL and i'm so happy rachel was included i'm surprised myself. before this i wouldn't think about her as an addition to kurt & mercedes but just as it happened i realised it was ideal. she and kurt are really similar, so much that they can really understand each other and hold onto another. now i can't imagine quinn or santana in rachel's place. it's that three divas that have just perfect chemistry and understanding. and killer pyjamas. and, oh my god, kurt ate pizza.
- finn. as much as he was awesome in the super bowl episode he's a total jerk here. and quinn is a whore who wears a cross on her neck. i'm neither amused nor impressed. i like the honest, dorky, rather stupid finn so much and that one: over-confident, selfish, arrogant is bad for my heart. and quinn... oh well. i need to remember they're all stupid teenagers.
- sam. sam. SAM. i have no idea what to do with him. it surprised me but... him hooking up with santana made me look at him softer and maybe i'd give him a chance at a relationship with kurt (because this thing apparently hasn't died around fandom). but only if the explanation of everything stupid he does would be that he's lost, confused and unsure (which he, as i remember, admitted). but he wouldn't give kurt happiness and i want to see kurt happy in a stable relationship. god, i believe it's possible. anyway, sam treated quinn in an awful manner. even if she deserved everything. she's cheating again.
- finn & rachel part. i, actually, felt so sorry for rachel there i had tears in my eyes. i loved this scene where finn was in bed and rachel looked after him. it was painful, heartbreaking and deep. finn is a douche and rachel... rachel was so human here. resolute, understanding and damn strong. i really liked her in this part and my love-hate relationship with her continues.
- the performance at the end: blaine, what's your problem? you don't sing "i love you" to the person you've just turned down. but still, i loved it. new directions and warblers interacting. i love fics about that, i love seeing it.
glee: 2x13, comeback
episode that, well, didn't really impress me that much. and it wasn't really because there was lack of kurt (omg, first time he wasn't in an episode). just... after SLS which set high standards, comeback was just... ok. of course not sue. sue was awesome. sue is ALWAYS awesome. i think she's my second favourite character (along with burt <33). kurt and sue. and then... okay, i have no idea who i like aside from them. i guess it's everyone all together. anyway, episode. sam was adorable and, jesus god, he made me like justin bieber's song. of course glee guys were dorky and stupid (and adorable <333), finn was... oh my god, i love finn in fanfiction, he's so... huggable. yet canon finn has become something utterly disgusting. manipulative. self-centered. i don't like him now. and with his recent character development i'm not sure if i still want brotherly love with kurt, i expect he'd be a moron about that. and SUE. the bits with her, will and children made me grin madly. sue's soft side showing always bring this reaction out of me. but sue is sue so she threw a curve ball and... oh god, she's competing against ND. I CAN'T WAIT.
glee: 2x14, blame it on the alcohol
- OKAY. glee is on its way to kill me. it's got some sort of good-omg!awesome-good-omg!awesome episodes pattern. BIOTA episode was BREATHTAKING. so much development, so much insight into characters, so many changes. jesus. and so much second hand embarrassment i was able to watch it only one time and it's hard to just start it now in order to refresh it and write a review.
- rachel's first attempt at original song KILLED ME. oh my god.
- the party. i loved how the glee kids got drunk and crazy. rachel wore... i don't know what was what she had on her but it was AWFUL. i mean, maybe it wasn't that bad but she couldn't really rock it. i have a night gown that looks similar, for christ sake. so the party was fun. OVERLOADED WITH SECOND HAND EMBARRASSMENT, as i said. i feel so awkward when i see kurt's... i don't know, "gay moves" while he dances. okay, maybe gay moves is something ridiculously homophobic to say but... i guess i just dislike it. it's so awkward. everyone finds it hot, well, i don't. unless kurt does what chris colfer does: UNLEASHES HIS PELVIC THRUSTS. and that's hot. blaine drunk and dancing? PRICELESS. i mean, i died.
- and this leads to blaine and kurt in this episode. and they made an impact. like whoa. first of all: drunk blaine kissing rachel. and i'm so conflicted about how i feel about this. for once: they're drunk - i've been drunk enough times to know you do STUPID things you regret when you're this... well, under influence. for twice (lol): it's just a spin bottle game. what i've done because of something like that... well. blaine admitted to being clueless. so that and the fact that he was done for is enough to act thoughtlessly. he probably didn't even realise what it must meant for kurt to see him kissing someone right in front of him. and for kurt it was probably painful. he likes blaine and he's settled for friendship but it doesn't mean he won't cry when he sees blaine fooling around with someone else. so yeah, it's hard. complicated situation. blaine is a king of cluelessness and mixed signals.
- kurt and blaine: fight. i'm honestly too tired to write about it. i've seen so many ESSAYS on who's right and who's wrong. as in 99% cases of fights, they both are. kurt seriously irked me, for the very first time and it was HARD how much, when he basically said he didn't believe in bisexuality. i'm bisexual, so, kurtie my precious boy, you made me mad. also, words as hurtful and biphobic as that coming out of kurt, the very target of bullying because of sexuality is just... kurt, if you really meant it and if it wasn't said just because you were mad at blaine then it makes you a hypocrite. i'm sorry, but yes. i can understand his fury, though. he still idolises blaine (he shouldn't), he was afraid of losing a gay fellow, he was jealous because he likes blaine. so he said too much. he didn't support blaine because of all the conflicted feelings. as for blaine, i understand him. he wanted kurt to be there for him while he was uncertain, of course. but he's oblivious and inexperienced and he doesn't understand that it's hard for kurt to do that as he likes him. and blaine, under no circumstances, should have compared kurt to karofsky. ah, boys. ah, teenage angst (okay, it's not just teenage, adulthood is packed with it, too). i wonder if they'll be stil fighting in next episode. oh god, how i love their relationship, whatever it is.
- rachel. okay, anything she gained in previous episodes was lost here. she's a fake friend, her self absorbed confidence and arrogance and egoism came back. she's kurt's friend and she damned KNEW of kurt's feelings. yet she went for blaine. and, jesus god, she slapped kurt i the face LITERALLY and AUDIBLY saying that "no, who cares about your feelings and your heart if i can gain something out of it". had she not said it, i'd have hope she was... clueless. but she admitted to not caring about kurt. so, old rachel whom i hate is back. i hope not.
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- it kinda hurts to see kurt so happy and love struck and know he'll have his heart broken.
- all theories fell apart: blaine is NOT experienced, blaine does NOT know what he's doing, blaine does NOT ask kurt out. i can't wait for how they progress.
- i'm talking to myself and screaming to myself and what not, screw what my bro thinks, i slept 3 hours, my hair is dirty, i have panda eyes, i sob like an idiot and i desperately need a shower but fuck, who cares, jesus this episode was so much and more, omg my life is complete now.
- blaine developed personality.
- he's got surname.
- he's more dorky and insecure than kurt, if they (ok, WHEN) end up together kurt'll be the man. but blaine will stuck fuck him. totally.