darling thanksgiving
So Thursday my mom and Nina and I went to downtown frederick and ran in the Turkey Trot, which was a 5k (three and half miles) of pure torture. I sucked. I mean, god, did I suck. My mother finished before me. Yea.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I think it's just a bounce back from the whole anorexic thing. I'm just trying to find a BALANCE ya know? It's like I'm trying to rediscover me, and love me for who I am. It's been a hell of a summer/school year so far and I feel like I've been to the other side of the world and back (fig speaking).
Life is just kinda...busy. LOL I'm setting goals, buckling down and just...living. In May I'm going to run a half marathon. Ha, I know. Crazy. LOL
I have six months before the race. I have six months before graduation. I have almost six months till I'm 18. LOL watch, Fate is gonna get sly and I'll die right b4 six months. (grin)Gawd.
Perspectives. They change like the weather- you can never be sure which direction they'll go to. 2moro is going to be interesting. I'm gonna visit the boy- I haven't verbally spoken/seen him since...gawd 4ever. I think I might be setting myself up for hurt, distaster and tears but for some reason, I have to go. I HAVE TO. I can't explain it.
The chapters of my life. Ha.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I think it's just a bounce back from the whole anorexic thing. I'm just trying to find a BALANCE ya know? It's like I'm trying to rediscover me, and love me for who I am. It's been a hell of a summer/school year so far and I feel like I've been to the other side of the world and back (fig speaking).
Life is just kinda...busy. LOL I'm setting goals, buckling down and just...living. In May I'm going to run a half marathon. Ha, I know. Crazy. LOL
I have six months before the race. I have six months before graduation. I have almost six months till I'm 18. LOL watch, Fate is gonna get sly and I'll die right b4 six months. (grin)Gawd.
Perspectives. They change like the weather- you can never be sure which direction they'll go to. 2moro is going to be interesting. I'm gonna visit the boy- I haven't verbally spoken/seen him since...gawd 4ever. I think I might be setting myself up for hurt, distaster and tears but for some reason, I have to go. I HAVE TO. I can't explain it.
The chapters of my life. Ha.