fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck...
My grandmother's dog died tonight. Now this was an old dog, her late husband's dog. She would talk to this dog and describe how this dog missed my grandfather. Now the dog is dead, god damn it! She's an 85 yr old woman living mostly alone. I'm scared for her. She's already depressed. She doesn't need anything else. This dog was old, so old it couldn't hold its bladder well, it smelled, had arthritis, barely ate, and so usually I'd say this is a good thing, but not now.
Its also the 4th. Its hard this year. Last year the weekend before the 4th was wonderful. God, I'm lonely, and no one else can really stop that. I'll just keep on keeping on. I hope I can go out tonight.
I did have a good day though. I went to Barter Theater with my mother, Leigh and her 3 kids, ages 5 (Emma), 3 (Ivan), and 18 months (Frya). We saw Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs for Emma's birthday on the 5th. It was lots of fun. Either I chased around the older ones playing tag, was on the play ground, threw them around in the water or I was chasing and playing with the younger. I was the Au Pair. It was lots of fun. They're really sweet kids, not to say there wasn't some sibling rivalry especially for my attention. I'm sunkissed (pink). It also gave Leigh a break and she chatted with my mother. I think they really enjoyed that. I hope everyone is doing well!
Its also the 4th. Its hard this year. Last year the weekend before the 4th was wonderful. God, I'm lonely, and no one else can really stop that. I'll just keep on keeping on. I hope I can go out tonight.
I did have a good day though. I went to Barter Theater with my mother, Leigh and her 3 kids, ages 5 (Emma), 3 (Ivan), and 18 months (Frya). We saw Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs for Emma's birthday on the 5th. It was lots of fun. Either I chased around the older ones playing tag, was on the play ground, threw them around in the water or I was chasing and playing with the younger. I was the Au Pair. It was lots of fun. They're really sweet kids, not to say there wasn't some sibling rivalry especially for my attention. I'm sunkissed (pink). It also gave Leigh a break and she chatted with my mother. I think they really enjoyed that. I hope everyone is doing well!