orientation at sd

[firekiss]

I just got back from orientation at UCSD. I don't know whether I expected too much or it just really wasn't that great. I came home today with slightly bittersweet mixed feelings. I drove there, which was really fun, but then I tried talking to some of the people and they were just like everyone else. heh, that's kind of a lame thing to say, but I just felt absolutely no difference between there and walking down the halls at south. We were even split up into groups with "leaders" which we spent a lot of time doing those 5 year old "ice breaker" games and shit. I felt like I was at a camp of some kind, not an orientation for college. People say, oh it'll be different, people want to be there. But there were people already complaining about the "shit we have to do." Then I got to meet my roommate (not my real roommate, just the one for orientation) and she seemed really nice but I found out, rather inconsiderate. First, I went to the bathroom to wash my face and left the door to our room open because I was going to be right back but while I was gone she had popped in to get a sweatshirt and locked me out. So then I went hunting for a spare key. Then she didnt come in until 6am and she walked in with non other than some guy she had just met that day. He gets in her bed and she goes and takes a shower. So I'm sleeping in the hardest bed in the world about 4 feet from a guy I've never seen in my life. It was quite strange. Then I had to go get ready in the bathroom because she and her guy had taken over the room. So then we spent the rest of today listening to them talk to us like we were entering 6th grade and hearing people around me make remarks that made my fists clench. A few of my favorites.. a professor was talking about Beowolf just as an example of a few things and he was explaining the story (in a very interesting way I might add) and the girl next to me was asking me about everything he said, "Why did he try to kill the mother? That's mean." "Wait, I thought dissent was when people kinda agreed or something." "What did he say?..superfluous? what the hell does that mean?" I was just sitting there about to shoot myself thinking this is who I'm going to class with? But then I also have to realize that the group I was surrounded by was only about 1/5th of 1/6th of the school so I think there's more out there. I also started getting a little sad because everytime they talked about something I'd go "ooh, lacey would love that or..patty would do well with that
and then I rememeber that I won't have you guys with me. (except for Andi). I will be going through this without you guys for the first time in 13 years and it's weird. It's a little scary. I can't even begin to fathom how much I'm going to miss you guys. On the more positive side though, I did feel something when I was walking with just my mom and I around the campus. I felt like I belonged there. I felt like maybe that is where I'm supposed to be and that the people at that specific orientation weren't representative of the student body. I can make it work. It'll just take a while. OH! and the one other thing I enjoyed was the professor of one of our gen ed classes talking about what we will talk about. It was great. I remembered how much I will get to learn and how much I'm going to love the things I learn. So, if I just focus on that I'll be fine. Books and profs!!! damn im a nerd hehe