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Well, as you can see I came crawling back to the ol' LJ. I figure I should start updating my journals again seeing as how the whole world hangs on every day of my life (that's to all you loyal readers out there).
For about a 2 week period ending a few days ago, I had what I'll call a dream bonanza. Every night during this period I had several dreams (up to 5!), all as vivid as can be. In fact, some were so vivid that later on in the day I would have a memory from a dream, and think it really happened. I have not a clue as to what has caused this but I'm lucky to have had all these bizarre and non-sensical dreams. A few of them were really scary, not because I was going to die in them, but because I faced jail time. Here's a notable one that had me freaked out:
Me and Bilal went to this building to steal some big item from it (like jewels or something). We got into this big open room where this thing was supposed to be. This room reminded me of a gym (big and open) and even had that feel to it. Anyways, Bilal pulls out his gun, and jokingly, fires several shots very close to my head. I didn't think this was very funny and proceeded to pull out my gun and shot Bilal about 6 times in the chest (sorry Bilal). After realizing what I had done, I exited the door of the room and somehow made it past many security guards who heard the shots and went home. After this incident in my dream, I lived out my average life, going to school and whatnot, and had this intense fear that they would dust for fingerprints on the doorknob and link me to the murder. In my dream I was sure I was going to get life in prison and I prepared myself mentally to be in jail for the rest of my days. You can't imagine how I felt when I woke up, I was utterly relieved. I was like "Thank God I'm still a free man!". Weird eh?
For those of you who don't know I now have a girlfriend. For those of you who know me you know this is quite an accomplishment. I can't really say how it's going right now but in 1 month I will know. I don't know whether I'm happier with or without a girlfriend. Before I was with her, I was happy, and now that I am with her, I am still happy, but let me analyze the sources of my happiness before and after and you can be the judge on whether you think my new happiness is better.
Before: I had mucho fun hanging with all my friends and just partying all the time. By partying I mean doing various drugs and drinking and whatnot. Although many of you can't see how this is fun, I never regret any of my actions and I actually enjoyed doing this weekend after weekend. I also derived happiness in the fact that I could do whatever and whenever, the only person I had to worry about was myself.
After: What can I say, I really enjoy being with Daniela and even talking to her on the phone (even though I always run out of shit to talk about). I'm happy knowing that I will be able to be with her this weekend, and that during the summer I will be with her a lot. She has definitely taken my mind off of partying and last weekend was the first in a very long while in which I was completely satisfied and not concerned with getting intoxicated on anything.
Basically my "before" happiness was derived from freedom of mind and the ability to do whatever I wanted and truly having absoulte freedom in deciding how I wanted to spend my days. My "after" happiness is derived from a single person, so it's a lot different.
I will end this post here, and will be updating it more now. Everytime I have a vivid dream, I will post it on here so you can see how bizarrely people's minds work.
For about a 2 week period ending a few days ago, I had what I'll call a dream bonanza. Every night during this period I had several dreams (up to 5!), all as vivid as can be. In fact, some were so vivid that later on in the day I would have a memory from a dream, and think it really happened. I have not a clue as to what has caused this but I'm lucky to have had all these bizarre and non-sensical dreams. A few of them were really scary, not because I was going to die in them, but because I faced jail time. Here's a notable one that had me freaked out:
Me and Bilal went to this building to steal some big item from it (like jewels or something). We got into this big open room where this thing was supposed to be. This room reminded me of a gym (big and open) and even had that feel to it. Anyways, Bilal pulls out his gun, and jokingly, fires several shots very close to my head. I didn't think this was very funny and proceeded to pull out my gun and shot Bilal about 6 times in the chest (sorry Bilal). After realizing what I had done, I exited the door of the room and somehow made it past many security guards who heard the shots and went home. After this incident in my dream, I lived out my average life, going to school and whatnot, and had this intense fear that they would dust for fingerprints on the doorknob and link me to the murder. In my dream I was sure I was going to get life in prison and I prepared myself mentally to be in jail for the rest of my days. You can't imagine how I felt when I woke up, I was utterly relieved. I was like "Thank God I'm still a free man!". Weird eh?
For those of you who don't know I now have a girlfriend. For those of you who know me you know this is quite an accomplishment. I can't really say how it's going right now but in 1 month I will know. I don't know whether I'm happier with or without a girlfriend. Before I was with her, I was happy, and now that I am with her, I am still happy, but let me analyze the sources of my happiness before and after and you can be the judge on whether you think my new happiness is better.
Before: I had mucho fun hanging with all my friends and just partying all the time. By partying I mean doing various drugs and drinking and whatnot. Although many of you can't see how this is fun, I never regret any of my actions and I actually enjoyed doing this weekend after weekend. I also derived happiness in the fact that I could do whatever and whenever, the only person I had to worry about was myself.
After: What can I say, I really enjoy being with Daniela and even talking to her on the phone (even though I always run out of shit to talk about). I'm happy knowing that I will be able to be with her this weekend, and that during the summer I will be with her a lot. She has definitely taken my mind off of partying and last weekend was the first in a very long while in which I was completely satisfied and not concerned with getting intoxicated on anything.
Basically my "before" happiness was derived from freedom of mind and the ability to do whatever I wanted and truly having absoulte freedom in deciding how I wanted to spend my days. My "after" happiness is derived from a single person, so it's a lot different.
I will end this post here, and will be updating it more now. Everytime I have a vivid dream, I will post it on here so you can see how bizarrely people's minds work.