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Wow. It's been a while. I'm not really sure what to say. Many thoughts I have are too deep to be read by my friends. And some they just wouldn't understand. One thing I don't understand is why people are so fake to themselves and others. Everyday I see people acting the way other people want them to. In my life, I try to avoid this, and so far I believe I'm doing a pretty good job. Immature people and many times faggots (as I like to call them) will make fun or joke around with me about french people, or french things, or french ideas, or whatever. This does not phase me at all. For instance, tomorrow I am going to wear my OC shirt. It is a shirt my cousin gave me that has french writing and a Celtic symbol on it. The other day (think it was wednesday) I was stretching at Cross-Country practice. Greg "The Faggot" Kruchco was behind me saying stuff with a French accent and shit like that. The stuff people always do. I was fine with it, and I didn't say anything to him, until he said "French people have small dicks". I immediately got mad as shit and I said, "Yeah, you say that now until I whip that out and you find something slapping your upper-lip". Actually, I didn't say that to his face, mumbled it to Amr Ibrahim next to me. Anyways, Greg is a fat loser who seriously needs a sports bra when he runs. He also is not one to talk about willie-size. People just need to be true to themselves. Not get worried about saying something cause someone who's a complete loser might think you're stupid or something. You shouldn't be afraid to tell another man you love him as a friend or what not because he might think you're gay. If you know you're not gay, and other people know you're not gay, what's the problem? Things like this aren't right about our culture.
Another thing I don't understand about people is they're confused about their right to a choice. Everybody believes you don't have a choice for many things (like going to school) which is completely wrong. You have a choice for EVERYTHING. Whether you're willing to accept the consequences of that choice is up to you. For instance, I still can't decide if there was a draft, if I would dodge it or not. I don't have a problem with foreign countries. It is true that I live in the United States and I'm fighting for its protection but the reason I have lived in the United States is because I was born here. Maybe for instance, I would've been happier growing up in Iraq or something. This is unlikely but it will do for proving a point. Also, everyone's got the choice to go to school, do drugs, obey your parents, etc. I excercise my right to choose in every matter. Sure my decisions may go against the desires of others but I am aware of the consequences and it is a choice I have made. Therefore, it is unfair for people to consider me irresponsible or "bad" based on my decisions. People who cannot or do not grasp this concept may indeed be irresponsible. This is the reason why there are age limits on many things such as smoking. Most people cannot make an honest decision about smoking until around the age of 18. Even then, some people still aren't mature enough.
These are just some of the things I think about day to day. It feels good writing them out and sharing them...so I think I'll be more open now about my thoughts.
Another thing I don't understand about people is they're confused about their right to a choice. Everybody believes you don't have a choice for many things (like going to school) which is completely wrong. You have a choice for EVERYTHING. Whether you're willing to accept the consequences of that choice is up to you. For instance, I still can't decide if there was a draft, if I would dodge it or not. I don't have a problem with foreign countries. It is true that I live in the United States and I'm fighting for its protection but the reason I have lived in the United States is because I was born here. Maybe for instance, I would've been happier growing up in Iraq or something. This is unlikely but it will do for proving a point. Also, everyone's got the choice to go to school, do drugs, obey your parents, etc. I excercise my right to choose in every matter. Sure my decisions may go against the desires of others but I am aware of the consequences and it is a choice I have made. Therefore, it is unfair for people to consider me irresponsible or "bad" based on my decisions. People who cannot or do not grasp this concept may indeed be irresponsible. This is the reason why there are age limits on many things such as smoking. Most people cannot make an honest decision about smoking until around the age of 18. Even then, some people still aren't mature enough.
These are just some of the things I think about day to day. It feels good writing them out and sharing them...so I think I'll be more open now about my thoughts.